Beloved

Today, it was a one of a kind outing. I went out with Asyraf and Priscilla =) Initially we wanted to go to the countdown at Marina. Unfortunately, it was kind of unplanned and last minute thing. In the end we went shopping at Mustafa Centre.

I also bought a skirt and a pair of shoes for my SIP. Priscilla wanted to see the perfumes. We spent almost 2 hours I guess just by testing most of the perfumes. Actually Asyraf wanted to get a cologne for himself but Mustafa Centre doesn't sell the new Polo Explorer.

Priscilla and I also bought some daily necessities. This is what we would do whenever our pay comes in, that is to buy all the things we need or things which we've been eyeing for so long.

And Asyraf, thanks for the surprise! really appreciate it =) ILY! Hehehe...

At the end of the day, I enjoyed myself being with my 2 beloved people =)

Staff Meeting

Today, I went to my posted school. I'll be doing my SIP for 10 weeks. Trust me, it will be hectic. The purpose of going to the school today is the staff meeting. Officially school starts on 2 Jan. Since Amanda and I plus 16 other new teachers will be joining the school, they had to brief us. Amanda and I were not looking forward to listening to the meeting. We didn't even talk much to the others. But of course when someone approached and talked to us, we just introduced ourselves. It's kind of awkward at first. Maybe because we are shy and still new to such things. Haha.

Some of these new teachers are permanent, some are relief teachers and while others are trainee teachers. We even met the school's staff; principal, vice-principals and teachers. It was an experience for me. I thought that the role of a teacher is just teaching and disciplining the students. Well, there's more than meets the eye. There were so much of admin work. All of the teachers have to hold many important roles. I must say that it is definitely not easy being a teacher.

The staff meeting started at 8am and ended at around 12pm. I kept fidgeting. I couldn't sit still. My back was aching and I felt sleepy. Amanda and I kept complaining to each other how tired we were. Luckily, breakfast, lunch and refreshments were provided for us. At least that made us alive. Haha.

The new teachers including Amanda and I were given a note to welcome us to the school and a candle. Apparently this candle symbolises us, the teachers, as the lights to show the way to the students.

I thought we only had the staff meeting in the morning. Unfortunately, there was an induction. It was about informing the new teachers more about the school such as the history, motto and values. After that, we had a tour around the school. We even get to see where we will be sitting throughout our SIP.



They spelt my name wrongly!!! No double L. Well it's ok I guess. Hehe =) Now Amanda and I have to get used to sitting in the staff room with the other teachers. Both of us were given one long table. It's so small! The table is shaky and we have to sit on those hard chairs like those in the classrooms. Do we have a choice? We can't complain also since we are only interns. But I like the position though. Somewhere at the corner and I don't think anyone would disturb us easily.

And now I must get used to students calling me Ms Emillia =)

A helping hand

At last I get to transfer those psp games to Asyraf. If not, he would be whining and sulking. Haha. I'm joking =) Well, that's me. I don't mind helping others but when it comes to myself, I can be a bit lazy sometimes. Maybe I'm that type who thinks for others first.

And yesterday I said that I forgot to bring the Vodka. Now Pris can be happily drinking with her loved ones. I passed it to her just now. See, I don't mind sending it to her personally.

When I got home just now, I even tried to help my brother with his handphone. Finally, he can store songs. So I helped to transfer some songs. Hehe.

I guess I've made them happy today and of cos, I'm happy too! =)

Merry Christmas!

I finally get to meet my dearest Pris on this very special occasion. I miss her badly. We never have the time to see each other especially when we are doing different modules for now. It felt good to talk to her like good old times. Haha.


I didn't there would be so much food. I had briyani which is her mum's specialty. I also had chicken curry and some prawns. Unfortunately no turkey today. Maybe she would pack some for me tomorrow. Haha.

I got her a perfume; Britney Spears Curious. She kept calling me asking where am I. I couldn't tell her at that point of time because I was buying her gift. If I were to tell her, most likely she would know what I'm up to. So I made her wait for the surprise.


Initially I wanted to wrap her present at her void deck. My instincts told me I better do it somewhere else. True enough, while I was wrapping the present, she called and asked me whether I would be walking past the church. I told her yes and I would meet her somewhere there. Apparently, she went out to exchange gifts with her friend for a while. Lucky for me. Hehe.

She was excited to open the present I got her. She opened it immediately. She was shocked to see that perfume. The one she's been wanting to get when the next pay comes. I thought that by buying this now, she can get the others. Now she must think of me whenever she spray the perfume on her. LOL.

Well I got presents from her. Ya presents. I got not 1 but 3 items. She got me a pair of earrings and a bling bling necklace. Hehe. Her mum also got me this roll-on eyeshadow. I'm supposed to bring the Vodka. But unfortunately, I forgot -.-. I think I would bring it tomorrow for her to celebrate and get high. Haha. Don't ask me how I got that Vodka. A long story. Hehe.




I had a great time with you, Pris. Hopefully we would meet this New Year's Eve!!! Merry Christmas everyone! =)

Missing You

I miss you, Asyraf...
I hope you will be back safe and sound...

=)

Christmas Goodies!

Hello hello hello! I'm back to blogging =). It has been a month since I last blogged. I have been VERY busy with design modules. Don't even want to elaborate any further. Now I'm having a short break!!! =) But then I have to go for my SIP this 2 January -.-

Ok enough said about that. What I really want to blog today is the early Christmas goodies I received from my fellow classmates. Ya a few of them came up with the idea of SECRET SANTA. Each of us had to draw out the name whom we are going to give the present to. We could not reveal the name until today. Guess who I got? It's our DRAMATIC Wani. Initially I didn't know what to buy for her. Somehow I guess she likes those girlish stuff and acts like a diva. Haha. Yesterday, Asyraf and I had a hard time searching and I finally decided to get her a DIY Beads Set. At least she can make those fanciful necklaces and bracelets with her sisters. I hope Wani likes it =)

We ordered pizzas. All the presents were put aside. When everyone was present, we gathered at the front of the class. Xiufeng insisted that she would be the one giving out the presents. So she acted as though she's the Santa or maybe more like a Santarina. Haha. So she called our names and pass the presents. We did not know who gave us the presents. All of us had to open up the presents first. After that, then we would know who when everyone started to confess. It was something which I never experienced before.

I got this pretty seashell necklace from Lee Kuan. She knows what I like. Maybe because she's been stalking me. Haha! Well I guess most people know what I like. And I'm grateful for that =) The class also received 2 marshmallow chocalates and 2 candy canes.







Our class also got presents for the design teachers. Unfortunately, our Adfund teacher couldn't make it today. Well I'm glad that 2 design modules are over!! I need a good break for now =)

Tata!

First...

Dear Asyraf,

I want you to know how much I love you. We have been through so much these past one year, but our love has always come out on top. You mean so much to me and I want so much to make you as happy as you make me. Each passing day has made me fall more in love with you. You can do the slightest thing and it warms me. Most of the time you don't even realize it. You are always in my thoughts and in my heart. I never knew that love could be so wonderful until I met you. You have given me a new perspective on so many things. I will always treasure our love and keep it safe. I love you, dear.

Love Always,
Emillia

I'm not looking forward to sewing =(
I just don't like sewing.
Hopefully I can cope with LSEW2.
I have only a month or maybe less than a month to complete 4 items.
Plus I have another design module; AdFund.
Another big sigh too.
Now my only wish is to get all of these over and done with.
With passing grades of cos =)

I'm addicted to this game right now =)

Sushi Go Round Serve all the customers in the Sushi Restaurant

Play this free game now!!

I've been missing in action for a week plus I guess. Many wondered where have I gone. I've been going through some things which I never experienced before. I had the worse birthday ever. I was seriously sick. I almost got admitted to the hospital if I was too late in going to see the doctor. But I'm thankful that I've recovered. My life is not in a good condition right now and I don't wish to explain it further. I just pray to God that things would just be fine for me. Here are some pictures of Hari Raya and my birthday.







If you give me, one more chance to tell you how i'm feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you give me, one more chance to tell you how i'm feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and you know,
I'd never let you go...

Chocolate Affair

Today I finally made the chocolate muffins and brownie =)

Muffin batter before baking.

Muffins after baking.

Muffins topped with some sugar.

Brownie batter before baking.

Brownie after baking. Topped with a layer of chocolate sauce and some chopped almonds.

Oh Toffee....

Believe it or not, whenever I hear Ricky Martin's song especially the hit single "Shake your bon bon", I feel sad. The reason being I miss my pet rabbit, Toffee. I like to disturb him, shaking his bon bon to that song. Haha. Toffee was given by my dad's friend because he didn't want to rear him anymore due to his busy working schedule as he had to travel a lot.

I still could remember how my dad brought Toffee to our house for the first time. My dad put him in a cardboard box. I didn't know what was in the box till I saw the box was shaking. When I took a peep, it was a rabbit. My mum wasn't keen in keeping the rabbit but somehow I like Toffee very much.

It was my first time rearing a rabbit. It wasn't easy but eventually I got the hang of it. My family and I even went to buy necessities for Toffee. I like to hold Toffee in my arms, pat his head and even stroke his fur. I felt warm whenever I held Toffee. Unfortunately, I didn't keep the rabbit for long. I gave it away to my primary school. My mum said that I always didn't do my part in cleaning up the mess. So she had to do all that and in a way she was fed up. I know it was a mistake in giving Toffee away because after 2 weeks or so, he died. I was so devastated.

And just now I happened to tell my mum that I miss Toffee. She said that I could get one as my birthday present. Now I don't know whether I should rear one again. I'm just afraid that I wouldn't do my part again in taking care of the rabbit especially when I'm still schooling.

Well I guess I better think carefully before I make a decision since now I'm half-hearted in getting one =)

Japanese Bathroom Prank!

It's a must watch video. I couldn't stop laughing. Thanks Nurz for the video. Do enjoy watching =)

Hari Raya Treats

Here are some kuih my mum and I have made. Soon we will be making cakes and muffins. Enjoy =)

To sleep or not to sleep?

I've just read this interesting article about couples sleeping together. According to a study, women sleep less soundly when they share a bed with a romantic partner. Surprisingly, men actually sleep better when they sleep next to a woman. There are a lot more couples sleeping separately than you might guess. According to a survey conducted, an estimated 23 percent of American couples sleep apart.

Women may have a tougher time sharing a bed because men are much more likely to be snorers. A group of Austrian researchers asked 10 committed couples, ages 21 to 31, to wear a small device called an actigraph on their wrists while they slept at home. An actigraph, which resembles a wristwatch, keeps track of a person’s movements during the night and chronicles their periods of sleep and wakefulness. The actigraphs showed that the women’s sleep was more fragmented on nights when they shared a bed, than when they slept alone. The differences weren’t huge, but they were significant.

The researchers speculated that women's fretful sleep might be caused by brain wiring differences between men and women. Women tend to be lighter sleepers because they historically have been the ones caring for infants, the researchers suggested.

Studies have also shown that men do better when sleeping in a shared bed because they are very dependent on close relationships — contrary to popular stereotypes.

When I read this article, I started to think whether I would be able to sleep with my future husband. Since young, I like to sleep on my own. Whenever there's someone next to me, I have trouble sleeping. Unless I'm dead tired then I wouldn't think if there's anyone sleeping beside me. Hey but who knows if my future husband is able to make me sleep soundly once I'm next to him then I must say he's definitely the ONE for me. Haha =) But definitely I wouldn't be so cruel as to sleep on separate beds or end up either one of us sleeping somewhere else. Eventually I would be able to adapt to new changes once I'm already married. Isn't that what a good wife should do? =D

You are the one

Dearest Asyraf,

Sometimes I sit and wonder
And I just can't seem to believe
What a blessing it's been to be loved
You're an angel sent to me

You're the star who lights up my sky
You're the one who made me see
That I don't need wings to fly
Your love has set me free

Cause you are the one who makes me whole
In my heart and in my soul
And just like the sun you showed me the light
I'm amazed and you're the reason why

Before you I was so blind
I didn't know which path to choose
You poured all of this love in my heart
And now there's no way that I can lose

And when I have no faith in myself
You're the one who makes me strong
I wouldn't have a story to tell
Or an ending to my song

Love,
Emillia

Happy Birthday Papa <3

Happy Birthday Papa!!!

Today is the day I celebrate,
My Papa dear, your great big heart
You gave me, you gave your all
To me, true life you did impart

The years may go, they slip away
But, you're in my soul, my every day
The love you gave, the life you give
Has taught me, what it is to live

Your presence, all you truly are
In all I am, forever marked
God bless you always, dearest Papa
God bless your loving heart...

I love you very much =)
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Since we will be fasting, my family decided to sing the birthday song and cut the cake during sahur. I think it's the first time celebrating my father's birthday at this hour around 5 am. Everyone looked tired but still managed to smile. Here are some of the pictures taken. Well I don't want to be in any of those pictures due to some reasons =)

Forgiveness

I thought I could go to bed early today but unfortunately I couldn't do so. It seems as though there are so many things on my mind. While I was lying on my bed, suddenly I thought of all those people who have entered my life and made a difference in times of good or bad.

Somehow I started thinking of a friend. I knew a girl since secondary 1 and she became my bestfriend. We are more of like sisters actually. We could talk about anything under the sun and often confide in each other. But just because of one bad incident, our friendship ended just like that. We never talked to each other till this very day. I was affected by that incident very much and I didn't forgive for what she did. So today I finally realised that it was foolish of me to hate someone I once loved like my very own sister. I don't even know if it's too late to apologize to her. After all these years, I only decided to apologize to her now. Maybe at that time I was still young and didn't know how it felt like to be in other person's shoes. Now when I looked back, I bet she must have been hurt real bad and just moved on with her life. But whenever I think of it, I should have just let it go. I got carried away with my emotions. I wouldn't want to forgive and forget for what she did back then.

I wouldn't want to have so much hatred in me. It feels uncomfortable with so much pain. I realised that in life I can't afford to hate someone forever. It's best for me to seek for forgiveness than to regret for the rest of my life. For now I just hope for the best.
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Alhamdullilah. My prayers have been heard =)
I'm glad that she sms-ed and things are fine.

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

It feels so different being here on my own. I was so used being next to you. For the time being, life for me is not the same. There's no one to turn to. It seems like everywhere I go, I keep thinking of you and missing you. Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing. And I can't seem to shake those memories. I would always have dreams, dreams of you and me. I realised that I don't want the world but all I want is you. You're like my past, my future, my all and my everything. Whenever I think of love I think of you. My laughs, my frowns, my ups and my downs. Neither words can explain the love I have inside. The feeling is in my soul and heart of mine.

<3

I can't wait till afternoon to blog about this and it's the first time I'm writing an entry at this hour. Lisa got me feeling excited to watch this movie. She said it's a must watch romantic movie entitled, The Notebook.

Yeah I know I'm kind of outdated. This movie was released in 2004. I heard about it but I've never got the chance to watch it. So now since I'm free, I have the time to watch any movie. Lisa kept saying how good the movie was. It can make you cry badly. So the moment I had my sahur, I went ahead to watch the movie. It was a good movie. A very touching storyline. I definitely would give this movie 2 thumbs up.

I must say that after watching this movie, I would want to grow old with someone I love very much for the rest of my life. Well I wouldn't want to tell the story here. Those who haven't watch, you better do so! Prepare packets of tissue or maybe a box of tissue would be easier. Enjoy =)

Thanx Lisa for "The Notebook" plus "Baby, it's fact"! <3

Just in case they're wondering
They've got us pinned terribly
They don't believe our love is real
Cause they don't know how real love feels
You should know it's true
Just now, the part about my love for you
And how my heart's about burst
Into a thousand pieces
Oh it must be true
And They'll believe us soon
Baby, it's fact
That our love is true
The way black is black
And blue is just blue
My love is true
It's a matter of fact
Oh, and you love me too
It's as simple as that
Baby, our love is true
They may say some awful things
But there's no point in listening
Your words are the only words
That I believe in afterwards.

This happened recently and I thought it has ended. However, it seems like things are out of hand. Apparently, one of my classmates lied and fooled us. She claimed that she sew this book cover at her aunt's place. She sounded so convincing. We asked her about the embroidery. She even said that oh you can do all sorts of pattern.

We found out that this great pretender has been lying all along. How? Well, my friends and I so happened to be at Century Square for our lunch. I wanted to go to Watsons to get some things. While my friends and I were looking at some things, it happened that Fattasha was walking around the place while talking to her sweetheart. Suddenly, Fattasha grabbed my hand and asked me about that pretender's sewing item. I was clueless at that point of time. So she asked me to follow her to the back of Watsons. To my surprise, it was the EXACT same book cover as what that pretender claimed to be hers.

Then the rest came and was so shocked. Priscilla was mad of course. She said that this is very unfair to those people who had put in a lot of effort to sew all 3 items from scratch. She even got the cheek to say that she sew that at her aunt's place. Furthermore, it's Watsons' product. They were saying that so now she got her own line of manufactured products in Watsons? It was funny. Plus there was a promotion going on, buy one and buy the second piece at half the price. Priscilla bought 2. Haha.

All of us thought she has changed after what had happened in the first semester. We kind of forgave her and just moved on. Unfortunately, that's not the case. She continued to lie and fool all of us.

So the following day, Priscilla brought that book cover to school. Actually it is a notebook. But she took out the notebook and just presented the book cover. When Priscilla showed that book cover to some of our classmates, most of them said this, "Isn't that ______'s one? She sew it at her aunt's place right?" Haha. One thing for sure is that she's consistent in lying. She didn't change her story at all. Most of our classmates were shocked too.

We wanted to expose her. We can't possibly keep quiet and just let her hand in something which is not done by her. It's unfair. The best part was that she took out the washing label instructions and just add on some things. Priscilla went to tell Veron, our sewing teacher on the day of submission. I wasn't there to see what happened because I had OTCM term test. All I knew was that the pretender got away with it and was given till Friday to sew a new item. Priscilla was freaking mad. Haha.

And so Priscilla happened to blog about it. Priscilla even tagged at the pretender's blog. Surprisingly, most people believed this great pretender. All of them supported her. Even her boyfriend or should I say ex-boyfriend? I also don't know. But whatever it is, she has people to make her feel as though she's the victim whereas we are the bad people. They even said we are liars, bitches and even needed to seek psychiatrist. I was like WTH? Shouldn't she be the one to seek medical attention? She's going to be a teacher soon. And look at what she has done. She always say that her classmates are avoiding her. But please lah, we are so kind enough as to talk to her, be nice to her and forget about the past. But what is she doing? Still bitching about us on her blog.

So who is the one who needs medical help now? I guess all of you should know the answer.

By right today I should be studying, but unfortunately I didn't. Ok lah at least I did some notes. I don't know why but nowadays I seem to have inspiration to blog. Isn't that weird? Maybe I need to distress myself.

Today I watched this Malay movie, Mukhsin. Although it has a simple storyline, I love it. It's a friendship turns to romance kind of story. In addition, it's a love story between 2 young kids, a 10 year old girl, Orked and a 12 year old boy, Mukhsin. When you see the name Orked, some of you might find it familiar. Yes this is a prequel to Sepet and Gubra. Some of you might have watch either one or both of the movies. But I didn't like the ending part. It was so sad. Everything comes to an end when Mukhsin has to go back to his village. Mukhsin never promised that he will be back, but Orked assure that she would ask her parents to drop by at Mukhsin's place, but a misunderstanding between them has changed everything. Orked never saw him again. That's when Orked recite this poem. I cried real badly.

Everyone has a first love story to tell:

The minute I heard my first love story
I started looking for you, not knowing
how blind that was.
Lovers don't finally meet somewhere.
They're in each other all along.

List out your Top 5 Birthday Presents you wish for:
1. Chocolate Cake
2. Jewelry
3. Flowers
4. Soft toy
5. Bag

Answer the following questions -
1. The person who tagged you is: Amni
2. Your relationship with her: My ex-classmate from BGSS
3. Your 5 impressions of her: Loud, Outgoing, Funny, Friendly, Thoughtful
4. The most memorable thing she have done for you: Gossiping with me? =D
5. The most memorable words she have said to you: She's a bitch and look like a mamasan.
6. If she becomes your lover, you will: Commit suicide.
7. If she becomes your lover, things she have to improve on will be: Will never happen.
8. If she becomes your enemy, you will: Don't bother about her.
9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be: She's annoying and bitchy.
10. The most desired thing you want to do for her now is: Always keep in touch with her.
11. Your overall impression on her is: A very good friend.
12. How do you think people around you will feel about you: Depends on who are the people. Some would hate me while others would love me.
13. The character you love of yourself is: My patience.
14. On the contrary, the character you hate yourself is: Think for others and not myself.
15. The most ideal person I want to be with is: Jake Gyllenhaal I think? But I have someone else already =)
16. For people that care and like you, say something to them: Thanks and I appreciate it.
17. For people whom I've hurt: I'm sorry.
18. For people whom I love and treasure: I love you so much!
19. Pass this quiz to 10 person that you wish to know how they feel about you:

1) Asyraf
2) Priscilla
3) Nurz
4) Nurul
5) Fattasha
6) Iqah
7) Supiah
8) Filzah
9) Amanda
10) Lisa

Who is number 6 having relationship with? I'm not sure =p
Is no.9 a male or female? Female.
If no.7 & no.10 are together, will it be a good thing? Chaos I guess.
How about no.8 and no.5? Will become good friend I guess.
What is no.2 studying about? CST same as me.
When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? Yesterday night.
What kind of music does no.8 like? Pop/Rock I guess.
Does no.1 has any siblings? Yes.
Will you woo no.3? If I were a guy, yes I would.
How about no.7? Maybe?
Is no.4 single? Definitely not.
What is the surname of no.5? Her dad's name is Ithnin.
What is the nickname of no.10? LisaKewly? MissSumpter?
What is the hobby of no.4? Being with Fauwaz? Sewing?
Does no.5 and no.9 get along well? I don't think so.
Where is no.2 studying at? TP.
Talk something casually about no.1? He's my only one =)
Have you try developing feelings with no.8? HELL NO.
Where does no.9 live at? Serangoon North.
What colour does no.4 like? Black and red?
Does no.7 like no.2? They don't know each other.
Does no.1 have any pets? Nope.
Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? Maybe not in this world but sexy enough =p

Joss Stone - Spoiled

I kinda thought that I'd be better off by myself
I've never been so wrong before
You made it impossible for me to ever
Love somebody else
And now I don't know what I left you for
See I thought that I could replace you
He can't love me the way you do
'Till now I never knew
Baby

I'm spoiled
By your love boy
No matter how I try to change my mind
What's the point it's just a waste of time
I'm spoiled by your touch boy
The love you give is just too hard to fight
Don't want to live without you in my life
I'm spoiled
I tried to tell myself that I'd be over you in a week or two
But baby that was 'bout a year ago
I've never seen the word love so personified as I do with you
And that is why I just can't let go, oh no

Spoil me
And I would only be fooling myself if I tried to
Believe there's room for someone else in my heart
There ain't no way I'm getting over you
I don't know what I've been trying to prove
I'm hopeless, helpless when it comes to you

"Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the PAIN, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down oh no
So don't you bring me down today"

Yes those words look and sound familiar isn't it? It's part of Christina Aguilera's famous song entitled 'Beautiful'. There's a very important message to that song. It's like every girl in this world whether she's gorgeous, ugly, fat or thin, she would have this insecurity of the way she looks. So we ask this question, "Why?".

Well it's simple. People like to judge others on how they look. Outer beauty is the main criteria. And then we asked this, "What about the inner beauty?" In this modern age, people don't even care if you are the nicest person living on earth. Appearance is more important than anything else. If you are not pretty, no one would look at you or even smile at you. Isn't that just so sad? Sometimes we ought to tell ourselves this, "We don't ask to be born a certain way".

Yes medical technology is advance now. You can go under knife. Get yourself cut up and have all those artificial things inside of you. Well there's always a price to pay. Would you go all out to make yourself perfect? What happens when there are side effects or when your own body reject these "foreign" things? Wouldn't you suffer even more pain? After so much you've been through and now you are sick. Sick as in having all kinds of diseases.

That's why I realised that we, human beings cannot accept criticisms. One can just say, "Oh you are ugly and fat". At least if you are fat, you can exercise and eat healthily. But what about your appearance? Maybe cosmetics might help but to a smaller extent. Cosmetics can only cover up your flaws such as eye bags, wrinkles, open pores and scars. Definitely not physical features. It's like you can't do anything about it. God has create each and every single one of us differently. So if you are lucky, you have the whole package. But hold on, if you have the best looks, would you have the best personality and character?

That's another issue. If you noticed, majority of those people who are ugly have nice personality and character. While those who are beautiful are so arrogant. But I never say ALL. Yes there are some ugly ones who are wannabes. They want to boost their self-esteem but in the end their personality just sucks. There are some beautiful people who also have beautiful heart. But it's rare to find these bunch of people.

Whatever it is, we must always remind ourselves this, don't ever compare with others. Just be who you are. Never take people's criticisms seriously especially on your physical appearance. Don't hate yourself because of that. Maybe people just couldn't accept for who you are. But I'm sure there are other people who enjoy being with you. Your personality and character could be your strength if not your beauty.

Some even say that ugly people won't be able to be in a relationship. Well I think that's bullshit. All of us living in this world are meant to find their soulmate. It's just a matter of time and luck. I just believe that God has assigned all of us to our partners. If there's fate, that special someone would always be with you. I mean just look around you, there are so many mismatch couples. But have you asked yourself why did it happen. Well simply say that some people would rather go for inner beauty. Let's say you want to spend the rest of your lifetime with that someone, you must be able to tolerate that person. What if he/she is a difficult person? An example is that the person is stubborn-headed, likes to throw tantrums and very demanding, are you able to stand that person? Furthermore you will be living together with that someone till you are old.

And then people would say, "Oh those beautiful people with bad personality can be changed". But to what extent can that person change for you? Character and personality are built within you since young. It's based on your upbringing and how you are influenced by other people around you. So it means to say that, it's permanent in a way.

I think that people should just live happily. No use thinking so much about what others see in you. If they can't accept you then its their loss. Just believe in yourself that one day, you will find that special someone who loves you for who you are.

I guess I'm done speaking out for those people with low self-esteem =)

Have a nice day. Toodles <3

And so I'm done with NLS!!!!! Woohooo! I just couldn't describe what I'm feeling right now. 1 week more to the holidays! Oh well I still have my PBPN next friday. That will be the last one for this semester. Since I managed to go through NLS, hopefully PBPN will not be a problem.

Oh ya and I got back my sewing assignment. At least I've improved. I got C+. Well I think it's good enough that I managed to get such grade. My last assignment was D+. I don't have high expectations for sewing because I suck at it. As long as I passed and don't have to repeat this design module, I'm happy =)

Then I went out with him. It's been like more than 3 weeks since we last meet each other. I've been busy completing my projects and assignments the last time. And now I have exams to clear. He's also busy with his work. So practically we are busy people. Haha. But it's ok. Soon I will have a long break. So I'm looking forward to it.

Oh well when there's food, we are happy people. Seriously speaking, I've never seen a person who can eat so many sushis at one go followed by 4 cream puffs. I'm telling you that those cream puffs are not minis. They are those huge ones with sugar and lots of filling. Surprisingly, he managed to finish everything up. Well it's true when they say that guys can eat so much. I couldn't agree more. When I had one I thought that would be enough. But no I had to eat another one. And when I ate the second piece, I told myself I'm not going to eat cream puffs ever again. LOL. I think I'm not a cream puff person after all. Maybe I'm more of a chocolate cake or an eclair fan =)

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Don't you girls just hate it when that time of the month comes? To make it worse especially when you are having exams soon. No wonder I've been feeling all moody, having migraines and couldn't sleep early. I guess everything comes at one go and so I'm feeling kind of pressured. Now I'm all nervous because I have less than a day to memorise whatever I can before my NLS paper tomorrow at 9.30am. Hopefully I can make through this one.

Wish me luck =)

Sleepless

I don't know why but I just couldn't sleep early. Is that a bad thing? Am I suffering from insomnia? I could only sleep early when I'm sick that's because I'm weak and the medication which makes me drowsy. I wonder if anything can help me cure this. Ya people would tell me to take sleeping pills. Sometimes I wonder is it because there are too many things on my mind or is it because I'm just like that. I feel that as though it is a bad habit and I'm used to it. I'm worried about this. Apart from falling sick, going to school or having so many assignments to complete will make me very tired. That's when I would be able to sleep peacefully. If let's say I never go to school and I'm always at home, I tend to sleep very late. When I try to close my eyes and forced myself to sleep, it's just so hard. Sometimes I end up crying. I know this won't get any better since I can't control it. Well maybe I just have to do something else to make me tired and head off to bed =)

One Fine Day

So I'm done with my OTCM term test today. Not too bad I must say. This time round I can do most of the questions unlike the first term test. I even handed in my sewing assignment. I just couldn't be bothered with the woman. I just give whatever I have. She can't fail me since I handed in my work. I would get a D at the most and I still would be happy =) I wouldn't want to repeat design modules. It's a total waste of time and effort seriously.

Throughout my life, I've been working so hard to achieve the best for myself. Here I am complaining about school work, exams and stress. But it got me thinking. I should just treasure what I have now. What if one fine day I might die unknowingly? At least I know that I've made the best out of my life and I've come so far. I have all the things which I could never asked for more. I have a nice family, supporting friends, a companion and all other things which I own.

So why always be unhappy, upset or angry over little things? We should just live life to the fullest with no regrets. Even though you make mistakes, learn from them and move on. Practically, that's life. I learnt that nothing is more precious than your own life. It depends on how you want it to be. Let's say I keep telling myself that I'm so stressed out and I can't do anything else. Wouldn't that makes me feel more pressured in the end? It means to say that I would live a stressful life. Sometimes we have to sit back and relax for a while. Do something you like and don't think too much about work or whatsoever.

I also learnt to think for others, love and care for those around me. They are the ones who stand by me all these while. As much as I want to hate any of my loved ones if they did something wrong or scold me, I couldn't bring myself to do it. Because at the end of the day, my love for them overpowers my hatred. And another thing about me is that I easily forgive and forget. Even though I can be so angry with you for that moment, but after a while I would just give in. Well that's me, I can be very soft-hearted. I feel that what's the point of getting angry with your loved ones for so long? What if something unexpected happen? Would you be able to turn back the time?

And in life, we have to take risks whenever we can. It's because you can never know for sure will it be good or bad? I've already taken a big risk since I know this was the first time. So I just hope that things would just be fine for long =)

Like I said, I've already tried to make the best out of my life. I'm contented with what I have. So at least I'll know that when I happen to leave this world anytime, I would be glad that I used to have a wonderful life.

Long Distance Relationship

People often say that long distance relationship won't work or last long. But is that true? Well honestly I feel that it takes mutual respect, trust, commitment, and love in order to survive a long distance relationship. What do I mean by long distance relationship? In this case, it means that either one of you has to go overseas to further your studies or your job is posted somewhere else.

Xiufeng and I had a small talk just now. She was telling me about her friend who will be going to America for her internship. Then I told her that is a very good opportunity to be able to go overseas while you are still schooling. She even said that her friend might be offered a job there. Xiufeng was telling me that if you are in a relationship it will be difficult. That's when she asked me this, "Would you go overseas to further your studies or migrate there and leave your boyfriend?" For a moment, I was thinking that such question never came across my mind. So I told her that even a 3-day camp, I already missed my house, my bed, my family and everything else I own. Haha. Then she said that I didn't answer her question directly. I told her that I won't leave him. I know myself and I couldn't bear to leave anyone just like that. I will get home sick because it happened to me once and I never want to experience it again.

I'm also afraid of going overseas on my own without anyone I know of. And I bet that my parents won't allow that. Ok maybe my dad would, but still they would be worrying about my safety and everything. Xiufeng said that she would leave everything behind if she's given the opportunity because it's her dream to pursue her studies overseas. She mentioned that even though you are in a relationship, this would be a test to see both are really meant for each other. If it is, both parties would still be in contact and faithful to each other.

But I just feel that it would be difficult especially the time difference. It's not easy to call each other. Furthermore, it's expensive to make overseas call. Even with the best technology, internet, it would be different. You can't talk to that person verbally unless you have microphone or webcam then maybe it might work.

I think this is up to individual. It's their own future. No one can make that decision. But it's best to compromise I guess. Try to talk things out and make a wise decision. I should be glad that I don't have to go overseas =) Singapore is where I belong. LOL.

Finally I'm done with my sewing assignment!!! =) Such a relief. Now I'm left with Tefund. I will start doing it tomorrow. That will be the last project left and after that I'm DONE! Then I will be focusing on my exams. I just hope to end this semester as soon as possible because I'm soooo looking forward to my 3 months break. I'm already impatient =D

Missing YOU

After 3 weeks, I finally got to meet him. Both of us have been busy. He has very tight work schedule while I'm busy with school projects/assignments. Well he sacrificed his sleep to meet me since we can't do that anytime soon. Exams are around the corner for me and today is the only day I could meet him.

Despite working night shift yesterday he did manage to watch movie with me today. We watched Alone. Interesting storyline I must say. I like watching horror movies but at the same time I'm scared of looking at those ghosts or spirits. All ghosts or spirits look gross and scary. If you know me well enough whenever there's eerie music background, I would get ready to cover my eyes or ears. I do that because I know that the ghosts or spirits would suddenly appear and will give you a shock. So I'm just preparing myself from that shock and also I'm just afraid that I might scream unknowingly. Haha. When you are scared, you may never know what will happen next.

It's been a while since I express my love for him. When I met him today after 3 weeks of not seeing each other, I couldn't stop smiling while looking at him. I don't know why but maybe because I missed him so much I guess. It's like I missed looking at him, I missed being close to him, I missed his smile and I missed his smell of cologne. Lol. We do contact each other but once you don't see each other for some time, you will have this feeling. It's indescribable for me. I feel a sense of comfort when I'm next to him.

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I've just changed my blogskin. I found something dark but yet bright at the same time. So there's a balance of both. I thought that by changing the blogskin, maybe I would have the mood to blog more =) I'm quite sick of the old blogskin. It's quite dull and dark.

Oh well, I'm supposed to sew my 3rd item yesterday but unfortunately I had a bad migraine. I didn't know why it happened. After I had my late lunch, I sat on the sofa and watch tv. Suddenly, the migraine came. It was only on the left side of my head. It hurts so bad that I told myself maybe if I were to take a nap, the pain would be gone. So I went to my room and just sleep. When I woke up at around 7pm, my head felt heavy this time round. I just couldn't bear with the pain. I had my dinner, watch tv and then took the medicine. Luckily after I've eaten the medicine, the pain was gone. It was terrible. And because of that I didn't sew! Tsk!!!

Then comes today, I thought I wanted to sew but school ended at 4pm. So I told myself maybe try to do some cutting of fabrics but unfortunately it didn't happen again. Priscilla asked me if I would be able to follow her to Century Square. Well, I just said ok since I feel that I could do the sewing during the weekends. She wanted to buy a cake for her grandma's birthday. I bet the cake will taste good as it looks.

My friend just wrote a random entry on guys using the friendster. Well I totally agree with her. Although it's just her point of view but she did make a good point in general. So I will just come straight to point here. Guys these days, attached or single are of the same kind. What do I mean by same kind? They are all gatal. Not itchy but loves to flirt. That's what it means if translated to english. Ok back to issue again. I despise especially those guys who are attached and try to be funny flirting with those girls. Yes they will add these girls on friendster then exchange e-mail address so that they can get to know each other better on MSN. From there, that will lead to phone conversation. Then.... I assumed you will know what happened right? Cheat behind the girlfriends' back. Typical case.

I don't care about those guys who are single. They want to flirt is their own problem since they are not attached to anyone. So they can have the freedom to talk to anyone. I don't mean that those guys who are attached can't have any female friends. But what I want to point out is that there must be a limit. If you are attached and you got the cheek to flirt with other girls, then I think you deserve to be killed. Unless if the girlfriend is like a control freak or a bitch then I would let you off. But if the girlfriend treats you well and you take things for granted, I bet you don't deserve to live in this world anymore because you don't appreciate her.

Guys are like easy preys. If any girl were to send them messages or add them on friendster, they would get all excited and actually entertain them. Especially when these girls are so pretty and sexy, I bet the guys' hormones are going wild. They don't even care if they are attached. So why guys resort to such things? Number 1: Their girlfriends are not good enough. Number 2: Guys are born like that in nature. They can't control themselves. Number 3: They don't appreciate inner beauty and outer beauty is what they look for. Number 4: Guys can never be satisfied with what they have. I think the worse scenario would be keeping in contact with their ex-girlfriends and rekindle the flame. Then why in the first place you break up with her? Guys can be fickle-minded. They don't know what they want in their life. I think if it's possible, they want every girl to themselves.

I never say that every single one of the guys are like that. There are guys who are faithful and devoted to their girlfriends. Unfortunately, in general most guys are jerks. Sometimes you can never be too sure if your guy is the good one. I know we as girls can't assume or suspect our boyfriends. But if you happened to find out or see with your own eyes, then I guess it's good that you whack him hard. I know girls are soft-hearted and would give their boyfriends another chance blah blah blah.... These guys won't repent that easily. They would continue to do so but this time round they are smart enough not to let you find out. They are even good at sweet talking. That's when you know he can be up to no good.

So I think my advise to all girls is that they should just pray they would get good guys. I mean there's nothing more you can do about such things. If your guy cheats on you, just dump him. Don't be too soft-hearted and give in. The more you give in, the more he would take advantage of you. Yes easier said than done. But you just think about it, would you rather suffer with a moron who don't love you sincerely or be single and find someone better? I leave that for you to decide.

I shall stop here for today, I'll be back with more updates =)

I feel soooooooo much relieve knowing that 2 projects are over and done with. Today is the submission date. So its 2 down and 3 more to go: CSAS, LSEW1 and TeFund. I just can't wait to finish up the others. Once I'm done with them I will start my revision properly. Recently I just feel tired and pressured. So many things are on my mind. It's like I'm constantly worrying on how to complete my assignments before 13 Aug. Well hopefully by end of this week I will at least complete my sewing and half of Tefund done. Enough with school work.

As usual today is Design Day. Initially I got no mood to do anything. But when that woman wanted to check how we've been progressing, that's when I told myself I hope she don't give me any problems. She commented on my oven gloves but she said never mind about amending them since it's tedious to do so. Then she asked me to unpick the seams for my apron and fold in the raw edges. I knew she's going to comment on that because I realised that I forgotten to fold in. So it was a miracle that I took out the machine and started sewing the seams all over again. I was thinking why not sew the seams in school and I could start working on my 3rd item. I also thought of redoing my apron pocket because I forgotten to fold in the raw edges as well =) Sometimes when you are too busy sewing, you can just forget about the simple but yet important procedures.

The fuuny thing was that Pris and I planned to skip class once she marked our attendance. We wanted to leave at 3pm. In the end we left at 5pm. How great. That woman just kept bothering us. Nowadays during lesson, she seemed to always be walking around at the back. She knew that those at the back would always be chit-chatting instead of sewing. Haha. Like what Pris once said "Sewing lesson is the time for socialising and gossiping". It's ridiculous but true. Since we had sewing lessons, we tend to mingle more with our other classmates. Maybe because we always talk loudly and people can just hear our conversations even if they don't want to. It's like in the end these people would share their stories/problems/gossips/opinions. We even learn something that we don't even know of. Yes I know it's interesting. Unfortunately most of the chatting kakis did not turn up for today's sewing lesson.

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Finally I've decided to update my blog. It has been days since I wrote an entry. I just don't have the mood and idea what to blog about. Well the weather has been cold and gloomy for the past 2 weeks. And I've been falling sick twice. I thought I was going to recover but unfortunately my flu came back again. How terrible is that. I can't breathe, smell and taste properly. School has been hectic. So many projects and assignments to finish up. It's stressing me up. Exams are like in 3 weeks time. Thank goodness I have to sit for only 2 papers. So I'm done updating about myself.

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Sometimes I wonder if I've changed whether for the good or for the worse. My friends knew that I've changed. They said it's not a bad thing but how I react and do things are different. So I asked myself this, is it because I'm growing up since I will be entering the adulthood? I see things differently since life is too short. I used to have a strong stand of not being in a relationship. But what happened now? I'm already in one. So I guess I've changed my perspective.

People also thought that I'm too mushy ever since I wrote a lot of those poems to him. Well I'm not a mushy person to begin with, but slowly I learn to express myself. Sometimes I would just write them because that's what I'm feeling. Furthermore this is my first serious relationship ever. I won't know what to expect in a relationship. I'm learning and along the way I see and learn things which I never knew all this while.

Yes I admit that once I said that one shouldn't be in a relationship now. I said that just to convince myself that relationship is a waste of time and a form of distraction. But when I'm in a relationship I realised I can proved myself that I can juggle school, family, friends and him at the same time. And of course I'm proud of myself. It means to say that I've set my priorities right too. I know what I want in my life. Let's say if I'm not going to have a boyfriend now, eventually I will have one isn't it? Initially I'm scared to be in a relationship whenever I see what my friends went through. But when a nice guy comes along, why not give him and me a chance to be together? Sometimes it's best to give it a try because you can never know what's in store for you.

People always thought that just because I wrote all those mushy and lovey-dovey stuff means I'm head over heels and mesmerize with my boyfriend. I won't say my relationship is a perfect one. Along the way there are bound to have problems. That's when you will learn to overcome problems and learn your mistakes. I admit that I do commit silly mistakes unknowingly. I must say that's part and parcel of a relationship. I will miss him so much and longing him to be there for me. Sometimes it takes such problems to make you realised that you love someone so much. We do take things for granted. We should never doubted someone's love for you and just treasure every seconds when you are with your loved ones. I know I've been through quite a bit till I fell sick since I've been having sleepless nights and kept crying. But then I believe that God will make me stronger. Now I guess time will tell and I will just have to wait patiently.

I guess today I'm in the mood to blog. I just feel like expressing myself. Asyraf just wrote an entry on Men and Women. Yes, they are 2 different species but it got me thinking that both have the same needs. They want the best of the best in terms of their partner's looks, body and character. Can one ever be satisfy with what they already have? Like most people would say, they deserve better. Human nature make it such that people are greedy creatures. They would be comparing with what others have. This is when people make mistakes. Nothing in this world is perfect and yet they are seeking for it.

Does this question ever occurs to you? Is there anyone out there who is beautiful/handsome with great figure and has a good character exists? If God make each and every single one of us that way, wouldn't that making the world a better place to live in with no problems? You don't have to choose since everyone is perfect and you just have to pick one.

Sometimes in life you just have to make do with what you already get. I believe all of these are predestined. If they are not happy with what they have, that's when they start to compare with other people. They would be saying "oh so and so has a nice boyfriend who is good-looking and well-doing". They would also be asking themselves this, "which person doesn't want to have a perfect partner?" I just feel that a person should just be grateful and thankful for having someone to be your other half. No matter how he/she looks like or how bad is his/her character, that person is still a human being like every one else even yourself.

I don't even see myself as the perfect girl and so I shouldn't have the right to be complaining that my boyfriend is not good enough for me. When you go out in the public, you see all these attractive people. Yes it's nice to look at them. But have you ever wonder this, would you ever look at your girlfriend/boyfriend the same way as you look at them although he/she is unattractive. And I bet you should even know why you are attached to him/her in the first place despite he/she not being attractive.

So am I wrong to make a statement that one can never be too happy with what they have? Well I leave that for you to decide.

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I'm feeling all stressed up with school, be it projects, assignments or exams. So many datelines to be met. Here I am online. Sometimes you just feel like getting away from all these. You just want to do the things that you like at your own pace.

Today, I just stay at home the whole day. I practised sewing my apron. It's not perfect but it's definitely a good start. This will somehow help me familiarise with the steps so that I would do a proper one for submission.

So I've been playing this pc game, Cake Mania, for the past few days. I don't know why I got addicted to that game but it all started from my friends. Apparently, Amanda brought her Nintendo DS Lite to school. She kept playing it whenever she's free. Priscilla would play Cake Mania on Amanda's console. She seems so into the game. As though nothing around her matters. It makes me wonder what is so fun about that game? Even Nurul loves playing it. I borrowed Nurul's CD and I installed it into my laptop. After one round, I'm hooked onto the game. I would play it non-stop. But now I'm stucked at one of the levels and I'm already too lazy to continue.

Now I have a new hobby. Well I don't know whether I should label it as a hobby but I did online shopping today for the first time! Haha. Ya I know that I'm like so outdated. People have been turning to online shopping since don't know when. Initially I thought that it would be a risk doing online shopping, especially transferring of money to the other person. But come to think of it, if it's not safe, why there are so many items sold out? The website also received good feedback and comments. I've just purchased this shirt dress. I think its worth the money. Hopefully I can get it as soon as possible. I'm all excited. Hehe.

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5 C's in a man; Cash, Car, Career, Condo and Credit card. Are these 5 C's important in determining the right man in your life? I wonder if Singaporean women are still using this 5 C's to find their other halves.

Well for me not all of the 5 C's are necessary. I would say that a man should have a stable career. With a stable career, your life would be secured. You don't have to worry since there is a source of income. Women want stability and security from the guys. And with that stable career, of course he would have cash. But of course, I would not depend solely on him. I would have my own career. With a combine income, it would really help a lot.

I also think that a guy should have a car. It's important especially when a guy has a family of his own. Travelling would be a problem especially when there are children. It's a hassle to bring them out by taking public transport. I've seen so many couples bringing their kids out. Some would push the pram and just occupy so much space. Having a car means convenience. You can travel anywhere you want to.

Personally, I feel that living in a condo is not a good idea. I know it's nice to live in a condo where you have all the facilities available. But then again, so much money is involved. You have to fork out so much every month to pay the maintenance fee. Buying a condo is not even affordable. Not all condo are nice. Some are too small. I rather stay in a 4-room/5-room flat. As long as there's a roof over my head, I'm contented.

I think it is not wise to have credit cards. Unless, you don't spend much and can pay the bills later on. Having credit cards can be a nightmare. If you are those type who shop a lot, be careful when comes to credit cards. Yes, it can be addictive sometimes. You just have to give your card and sign. You would be very happy for that moment but when the bills come, I think you can faint just by looking at the amount you have to pay back in return. Credit card acts like you buy first and pay later. And if you don't pay your bills, you can be declared as a bankrupt. So it's best not to have credit cards. But I think it's alright to have one just for emergency purposes. Let's say you don't have enough cash with you and need to buy something urgently. So that credit card would come in handy.

So my question to all the ladies out there, which C's are important to you? Or you wouldn't even consider any C's. Maybe personality, character or looks play an important role in choosing the man of your dreams.

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How do you know if your girlfriend/boyfriend genuinely loves you? It's hard to tell isn't it?

You may think that your girlfriend/boyfriend loves you so much just because he/she always spend time with you, show their affectionate towards you, whisper sweet nothings to you or even buy you gifts. What's the point when you get all those but actually your girlfriend/boyfriend is cheating on you behind your back?

Some people are able to tolerate with that just because they've been given all the attention they needed. But is that worth it? Why waste your time with someone who doesn't love you wholeheartedly?

Sometimes I don't understand why people are so cruel as to cheat on their girlfriend/boyfriend. You wanted to be a relationship with that person and even make promises to him/her to be faithful and loyal. But in the end what happened? Eyeing on others.

I think it's better to tell your partner the truth that you just don't want to continue the relationship anymore instead of making him/her look like a fool. Such things just frustrates me. People just don't treasure what they have. And when they realised their mistakes, they would come back crawling to their partners. Well I think that would be too late. Personally I feel it's still ok if these people repent but what if they repeat it again? Then I guess they deserved to be shot dead =)

Isn't it wonderful to have a bunch of friends whom you can talk to about anything under the sun? Not many people are open-minded. Some may be sensitive to certain issues and get offended as a result. But when you meet the right people, you will realised that there are so many things to talk about. It can be any issues ranging from personal problems to family affair to friendships to sex and relationships to general knowledge or even to the world. The best part would be relating one topic to another. You will also learn new things along the way. Sometimes you can learn and clarify things which you are unsure or unaware of. There will be exchange of everyone's view on the issues.

Priscilla and I have always thought that sewing period is boring. That's when we would always hang around somewhere else. And today, we decided to sit and eat at Design's school canteen. Then along came Nurul and Fattasha. They joined us. It seems like we talked so much today. We even touched on the topic of blood types.

Priscilla said that type O blood cannot donate to other blood types. But Nurul and I think otherwise. That's when we would start to explain to each other. It's like a debate. We even asked one of our classmates who is much more knowledgeable. She agreed with Nurul and I.
Well since I'm free, I've even check out the internet to do some research.

Persons with O Positive Type Blood can recieve the following types of blood:
- O Positive
- O Negative

O Positive type blood can be safely given to persons with blood types:
- O Positive
- A Positive
- B Positive
- AB Positive
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Persons with O Negative Type Blood can recieve the following types of blood:
- O Negative

O Negative type blood can be safely given to persons with blood types:
- O Positive
- O Negative
- A Positive
- A Negative
- B Positive
- B Negative
- AB Positive
- AB Negative
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So basically, Type O blood is the universal blood type and is the only blood type that can be transfused to patients with other blood types.

Unfortunately, I'm O+. So I can donate to others but people who do not have the same blood type as me can't do so. How sad. Well anyways I've learnt something new =)

Honestly speaking, I'm not cut out to sew. I only like to sew for fun. But when comes to sewing assignment, trust me, I'm bad at it. Even my mood would change. If anyone enters my room and disturb me, I would just scream and chase him/her out. Unfortunately, my brother was the victim =)

It's never easy to sew a product, for example oven gloves. Who in this world ever sew oven gloves? You can just buy a pair of them at any store. Furthermore, I'm just a beginner and I have to sew such things. Seriously I think that the design modules for my course of study is redundant. Who knows MOE won't include sewing subject in secondary schools for good? Then wouldn't that be a waste of time and effort? Even though it is not an examinable subject, I have no choice but to pass it. NO WAY I'm going to repeat it again.

I've even wasted my money just for buying fabrics. If it's cheap I wouldn't mind. I have to hunt for the right fabrics. And if that woman isn't happy with your fabrics, you have to buy again. To make things difficult for us, she even requested that we come up with a theme.

Back to my oven gloves, so I finished sewing them yesterday except for the bias binding. I thought it wouldn't be tedious to sew the bias binding. But I was wrong. I couldn't sew using the machine. It was difficult. In the end, I resort to hand sewing. My mum helped me with that. Even though the stitches don't look neat, who cares. If that woman mark me down then I got nothing more to say. I've tried my best. Nothing is perfect for a beginner. But I'm proud of myself that I managed to sew a real item.

They say that men and cars have a special kind of bonding on par with the kind shared among the best of friends. It won't be too wrong to say that cars are a man's best friend just like the way a diamond is a woman's. They have this strange affinity towards cars which no woman has been able to figure out so far.

Men are like kids when it comes to cars and one can just see a twinkle in the eyes at the mere mention of their cars name. I think cars have a therapeutic feel to it, after a long day of work just sitting behind the wheel of your car, turning on the music and just going for a drive just makes one feel that this is as good as it gets.

When there is a group of men together you can rest to sure that the topic of cars will crop up sooner or later and once this happens there is bound to be non-stop babbling and also a few arguments. What is this thing between cars and men I often ask myself?

I guess the only possible conclusion I could come up with is that men by nature love sheer speed and thrill of sitting behind a wheel which they find absolutely addictive. On second thought, the reason for the affinity between cars and men can also be due to the fact that men long for a sort of companionship on whom they can freely confide in.

Women always say that men don't get it. Well I guess it applies likewise to the women. They don't get it when it comes to men and cars.

There's a saying "Absence makes the heart grow fonder". I believe that explains how I've been feeling all this while. It has been almost a week since the last time I've spoken to him on the phone since my line got cut. And also he has been busy lately. I missed him so much. We don't even see each other that often. But today I finally got to meet him =)

"Distance never separate two hearts that really care,
for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there.
But whenever I start feeling sad, because I miss you,
I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss..."

Despite It All...

Despite the place,
That I'm now in,
This corner of my life,
That tells where I've been...

Despite the set backs,
That I face,
Or of the tears,
That leave a trace...

Despite the time,
That distance brings,
Or life's little quirks,
And all other things...

Despite the way,
Life comes about,
My love for you,
There is no doubt...

Do you ever encounter dreams/nightmares which feel so real? I just did just now when I took an evening nap. When I woke up, I cried. I don't know if I cried was because I'm glad it wasn't real or because the nightmare was too much for me to handle. Usually I couldn't remember much of what I dreamt of. But today it was different. I could actually recall the entire nightmare. I used to hear people saying that if you could remember your dream/nightmare, it would not come true whereas if you couldn't, then it would become real. I wonder if happen works that way. Whatever it is, I wouldn't want to have such nightmares anymore. Hopefully I can sleep peacefully tonight since tomorrow or should I say this morning would be DESIGN MODULES -.-

I don't know if it's just me or any other girls would experience the same thing. Out of the blue, I started to feel moody. I just don't feel like talking and want to be alone. It happened just like that. This would even affect the people around me. Since I don't feel like talking or whatsoever, they thought I'm having problems. But the thing is that I just got no mood. Not say I'm angry or feeling sad over something. I think it's PMS. This is just one of the symptoms I would get before having my period.

He was on night shift yesterday and as usual he would sms me. But I was feeling moody and I didn't really entertain him. So I felt bad and told him. He also knew that something is wrong with me. I guess a guy can easily spot the difference. Maybe the way I type my message is a big hint.

It's never easy being a girl.

=)

It's just first week of school and I'm drained.
Imagine enduring for the next 7 weeks.
Like I mentioned before there are so many assignments and projects.
So it's like I'm rushing to finish them before the date due.
And studying is never ending.
More difficult topics to be covered this term.
I wonder how I will get through this semester.
Well enough said about school.

I didn't think that house phone is very important till the past 2 days.
My dad has an outstanding balance and has been accumulated to a lump sum.
That's the thing about my dad, he doesn't like to pay bills on time and wait till the very last minute when almost everything got cut off.
So I think enough is enough.
I told my mum that I will terminate my house line under his name and get a new one under my name.
Wouldn't that be better?
I will settle the bill every month since I know that I use the phone most of the time.
But I can't blame my dad though since he's the only breadwinner.
He has to settle all the bills in the house.
That's when I think I'm so glad and thankful that I got into my course.
At least with the monthly bursary I can support both mine and my family needs.
I think as the eldest child it's my duty to help my family knowing that I'm already reaching adulthood.
I used to think that I wanted to save my money but then again I can do it later when I have a stable job.
Right now I just use whatever money that has been given to me to its full use.
And I did mention that house phone is very important because it's very difficult to contact each other and have to rely on our handphones.
Handphone bills are not cheap as compared to house phone bills especially if you want to talk for long hours.
Yes it's even difficult for me to call him and my friends.

=)

First day of school...
Just great.
Today is monday.
To make it worse, DESIGN MODULES-.-
I dread entering into the room.
It just makes me feel restless and lazy.
There are so many assignments and projects to hand in.
I bet I will be very busy trying to complete them.
I have to study for my 2 other subjects plus 1 CDS.
I got back my sewing assignment 1.
My grade sucks.
D+!!!!!
Wth.
At least give me a C lah.
In fact 3/4 of the class got grades of C-D.
The teacher was disappointed and even hinted that throughout her teaching, we are the worse batch.
That is so demoralising.
She has high expectations.
I wonder if she can sew EXTREMELY well.
Always talk so much.
Comment this and that.
Don't like the colour.
Think it's too simple.
It's very hard to please her.
She's fussy too.
Enough said about her already, I better move on with my second sewing assignment.
If she's still not happy then I don't know what else to say.

Today marks the last day of my term break. Typing that sentence makes me feel sooooo sad. I'm not looking forward to another term. It means assignments, projects, quizzes and exams will be haunting me. Hopefully this term would end as fast as last term. And I can't wait for my semester break. I will make sure that I pass all my subjects and enjoy my holidays.

=)

I went out with Asyraf today. But today's outing was all about my next sewing assignment. I needed to find ideas on what to do. I have to sew 3 items this time round and must have a theme. So troublesome. We went to those recommended places but to no avail. Wth. The weather was so hot and we couldn't find the places.

In the end we went to Spotlight. I thought of doing kitchen theme. So I just snapped few pictures of the kitchen items. We even explored the place to see the possible materials that I can buy when my pay is in. I know it was tiring walking from one place to another plus all those long bus rides. Furthermore Asyraf was on night shift yesterday and he didn't sleep till now just to accompany me. Thanks for everything. I really appreciate it =)

Nan Une Kadalikale <3

BOTANIC GARDENS....
That's the place we went today.
Asyraf and I met up with our Habbo pals; Lisa and Nadirah plus their friend, Eena.
We had a simple picnic at Botanic Gardens.
Sitting on the grass while eating some food.
Well we hardly talked because it was the first time Asyraf met them.
I felt shy because it was the first time I'm bringing Asyraf along to meet them.
So it was quite awkward for me.
Even when they wanted to take a picture of the 2 of us, I would just cover my face.
Hehehe :p
The weather was terrible.
It was freaking hot.
But once we settled down, the weather was quite cloudy.
They played poker cards but I didn't even know how to, so I just watched them play.
Then as usual the 3 ladies went off and took pictures of themselves like nobody's business while Asyraf and I just enjoyed each other's company.
Haha.
Hopefully the next outing would be a better one =)
I shall upload the pictures soon...

This Feeling of Love for Asyraf...

This feeling of love that I have for you,
A feeling so strong, so special, so new.
You give me the gift of happiness each day,
Never have I known it could be this way.
You have given your love regardless of cost,
With my heart in your care, I will never be lost.
Or never again wonder what love really means,
For now I do know it means so many things.
Understanding and caring, through good times and bad,
Sharing emotions, should they be happy or sad.
Being there for each other through laughter or tears,
At each other's side for the rest of our years.
My only wish is to be with you, my love,
For each day I pray to the heavens above.
That you always remember my feelings for you.
A feeling so strong, so special, so new.

=)

Just now I happened to watch the Mary Lee Show. It's sort of like Oprah Show but the difference would be this is the Asian version.

Today's topic touches on: Do guys groom?

In this modern day, surprisingly guys turn to spa and beauty products. They do want to look good themselves. But is that a good thing? They would spend so much money just to pamper themselves at spa and buy the best beauty products.

Well honestly for me, I do want my guy to look his best. Which girl doesn't want her guy to look good? But let's say if my guy goes to the spa and buy those expensive beauty products, that is such a BIG NO-NO for me. I think that would be too much for me to handle. Haha. A guy should be rough and masculine. Of course he must take good care of his appearance but not to the extent of becoming more like a WOMAN himself.

I know this is stereotyping.

And I think that if a guy looks too good, then all the attention would go to him and not his girlfriend. Haha. Sometimes I also feel that a guy can get carried away from being a metrosexual to homosexual or even bisexual. I mean WHO KNOWS?! LOL.

Guys turn to all these because of the media. The media portray that a guy should look as good as a girl. Especially those men's magazine with a handsome, clean looking guy and six pac abs on the cover.

Haiz.

I understand that girls out there can't find REAL men and won't even know what's real.


=)

Asyraf and I went to Causeway Point today. We watched Fantastic 4: Rise of the Silver Surfer. I prefer this to the the first one. We bought lots of food. Big packet of Chachos, sushi and honey glazed boneless chicken plus a 1 litre bottle of calamansi juice. Haha. To some people they might think, "WTH... A lot meh?" Well trust me I'm full just by eating those food. And it's more worth buying that than buying food at the cinema itself. Expensive and small quantity. Not value for money at all. Today was the sneak preview. Most of the back seats were occupied. And guess who occupied these couple seats? Old couple. Those makcik and pakcik. Wah I do admire them. LOL. So old yet the love is still sooooo strong. Only one FAMOUS word to describe that: "Lo-man-tic" Furthermore, it was so cold and dark in the theatre. Of course the pakcik took the advantage to sit so close and hugged the makcik. Hehehehehe :p

Apart from that, each of us bought belt set for our fathers. Fathers' day is around the corner. The weird thing was that those sets we chose and like best were all display sets. No more new stocks. I guess those sets must have been waiting for us to buy them. LOL.

Another funny incident would be bumping into Pris and her bf. She did sms me asking where am I. Coincidentally we saw each other face to face. We were shocked. I think if I were to pause that moment, our facial expressions would look funny.

Last but not least, I did enjoy my day with Asyraf. We don't meet everyday but when we do see each other once in a while, that's when you realised how much you missed one another.

Nan une kadalikale! :)