It's just first week of school and I'm drained.
Imagine enduring for the next 7 weeks.
Like I mentioned before there are so many assignments and projects.
So it's like I'm rushing to finish them before the date due.
And studying is never ending.
More difficult topics to be covered this term.
I wonder how I will get through this semester.
Well enough said about school.

I didn't think that house phone is very important till the past 2 days.
My dad has an outstanding balance and has been accumulated to a lump sum.
That's the thing about my dad, he doesn't like to pay bills on time and wait till the very last minute when almost everything got cut off.
So I think enough is enough.
I told my mum that I will terminate my house line under his name and get a new one under my name.
Wouldn't that be better?
I will settle the bill every month since I know that I use the phone most of the time.
But I can't blame my dad though since he's the only breadwinner.
He has to settle all the bills in the house.
That's when I think I'm so glad and thankful that I got into my course.
At least with the monthly bursary I can support both mine and my family needs.
I think as the eldest child it's my duty to help my family knowing that I'm already reaching adulthood.
I used to think that I wanted to save my money but then again I can do it later when I have a stable job.
Right now I just use whatever money that has been given to me to its full use.
And I did mention that house phone is very important because it's very difficult to contact each other and have to rely on our handphones.
Handphone bills are not cheap as compared to house phone bills especially if you want to talk for long hours.
Yes it's even difficult for me to call him and my friends.

=)

First day of school...
Just great.
Today is monday.
To make it worse, DESIGN MODULES-.-
I dread entering into the room.
It just makes me feel restless and lazy.
There are so many assignments and projects to hand in.
I bet I will be very busy trying to complete them.
I have to study for my 2 other subjects plus 1 CDS.
I got back my sewing assignment 1.
My grade sucks.
D+!!!!!
Wth.
At least give me a C lah.
In fact 3/4 of the class got grades of C-D.
The teacher was disappointed and even hinted that throughout her teaching, we are the worse batch.
That is so demoralising.
She has high expectations.
I wonder if she can sew EXTREMELY well.
Always talk so much.
Comment this and that.
Don't like the colour.
Think it's too simple.
It's very hard to please her.
She's fussy too.
Enough said about her already, I better move on with my second sewing assignment.
If she's still not happy then I don't know what else to say.

Today marks the last day of my term break. Typing that sentence makes me feel sooooo sad. I'm not looking forward to another term. It means assignments, projects, quizzes and exams will be haunting me. Hopefully this term would end as fast as last term. And I can't wait for my semester break. I will make sure that I pass all my subjects and enjoy my holidays.

=)

I went out with Asyraf today. But today's outing was all about my next sewing assignment. I needed to find ideas on what to do. I have to sew 3 items this time round and must have a theme. So troublesome. We went to those recommended places but to no avail. Wth. The weather was so hot and we couldn't find the places.

In the end we went to Spotlight. I thought of doing kitchen theme. So I just snapped few pictures of the kitchen items. We even explored the place to see the possible materials that I can buy when my pay is in. I know it was tiring walking from one place to another plus all those long bus rides. Furthermore Asyraf was on night shift yesterday and he didn't sleep till now just to accompany me. Thanks for everything. I really appreciate it =)

Nan Une Kadalikale <3

BOTANIC GARDENS....
That's the place we went today.
Asyraf and I met up with our Habbo pals; Lisa and Nadirah plus their friend, Eena.
We had a simple picnic at Botanic Gardens.
Sitting on the grass while eating some food.
Well we hardly talked because it was the first time Asyraf met them.
I felt shy because it was the first time I'm bringing Asyraf along to meet them.
So it was quite awkward for me.
Even when they wanted to take a picture of the 2 of us, I would just cover my face.
Hehehe :p
The weather was terrible.
It was freaking hot.
But once we settled down, the weather was quite cloudy.
They played poker cards but I didn't even know how to, so I just watched them play.
Then as usual the 3 ladies went off and took pictures of themselves like nobody's business while Asyraf and I just enjoyed each other's company.
Haha.
Hopefully the next outing would be a better one =)
I shall upload the pictures soon...

This Feeling of Love for Asyraf...

This feeling of love that I have for you,
A feeling so strong, so special, so new.
You give me the gift of happiness each day,
Never have I known it could be this way.
You have given your love regardless of cost,
With my heart in your care, I will never be lost.
Or never again wonder what love really means,
For now I do know it means so many things.
Understanding and caring, through good times and bad,
Sharing emotions, should they be happy or sad.
Being there for each other through laughter or tears,
At each other's side for the rest of our years.
My only wish is to be with you, my love,
For each day I pray to the heavens above.
That you always remember my feelings for you.
A feeling so strong, so special, so new.

=)

Just now I happened to watch the Mary Lee Show. It's sort of like Oprah Show but the difference would be this is the Asian version.

Today's topic touches on: Do guys groom?

In this modern day, surprisingly guys turn to spa and beauty products. They do want to look good themselves. But is that a good thing? They would spend so much money just to pamper themselves at spa and buy the best beauty products.

Well honestly for me, I do want my guy to look his best. Which girl doesn't want her guy to look good? But let's say if my guy goes to the spa and buy those expensive beauty products, that is such a BIG NO-NO for me. I think that would be too much for me to handle. Haha. A guy should be rough and masculine. Of course he must take good care of his appearance but not to the extent of becoming more like a WOMAN himself.

I know this is stereotyping.

And I think that if a guy looks too good, then all the attention would go to him and not his girlfriend. Haha. Sometimes I also feel that a guy can get carried away from being a metrosexual to homosexual or even bisexual. I mean WHO KNOWS?! LOL.

Guys turn to all these because of the media. The media portray that a guy should look as good as a girl. Especially those men's magazine with a handsome, clean looking guy and six pac abs on the cover.

Haiz.

I understand that girls out there can't find REAL men and won't even know what's real.


=)

Asyraf and I went to Causeway Point today. We watched Fantastic 4: Rise of the Silver Surfer. I prefer this to the the first one. We bought lots of food. Big packet of Chachos, sushi and honey glazed boneless chicken plus a 1 litre bottle of calamansi juice. Haha. To some people they might think, "WTH... A lot meh?" Well trust me I'm full just by eating those food. And it's more worth buying that than buying food at the cinema itself. Expensive and small quantity. Not value for money at all. Today was the sneak preview. Most of the back seats were occupied. And guess who occupied these couple seats? Old couple. Those makcik and pakcik. Wah I do admire them. LOL. So old yet the love is still sooooo strong. Only one FAMOUS word to describe that: "Lo-man-tic" Furthermore, it was so cold and dark in the theatre. Of course the pakcik took the advantage to sit so close and hugged the makcik. Hehehehehe :p

Apart from that, each of us bought belt set for our fathers. Fathers' day is around the corner. The weird thing was that those sets we chose and like best were all display sets. No more new stocks. I guess those sets must have been waiting for us to buy them. LOL.

Another funny incident would be bumping into Pris and her bf. She did sms me asking where am I. Coincidentally we saw each other face to face. We were shocked. I think if I were to pause that moment, our facial expressions would look funny.

Last but not least, I did enjoy my day with Asyraf. We don't meet everyday but when we do see each other once in a while, that's when you realised how much you missed one another.

Nan une kadalikale! :)

Well today is going to be a boring topic. It's all about SEWING. I bought a sewing machine before my term tests. I never open the box at all till last week. Haha. The thought of using it makes me zzzzzz. But I started to sew cushion cover today! I'm already 3/4 done! Well I'm just testing it out, just to make sure that the one I'm going to hand in will look superb. So this is just a form of practising. Practice makes perfect :)

Oh ya and another thing I want to bring up is about buying a sewing machine. This machine is not cheap. I bought mine for $299. I could actually save up that money or shop for other things. But come to think of it, buying one is like an investment. I can use it anytime I want to. This would save the trouble of me going back to school just to sew one damn cushion cover. Worse still, assignment 2 is next and I have to sew 3 items. Who can afford the time to do all that in school? I just don't like to sew in school. Just makes me so sleepy and lazy. I don't like the environment. Haha. Nothing like HOME. Besides that, I could even keep the machine for future use. I can practise making other items. I bet I will be a pro by then. LOL.

I'm not a sewing person to begin with. Slowly I begin to like sewing. It may be tedious and challenging but when you see your end product, there is this sense of satisfaction and achievement. It's like you can't believe that you made something out of your own effort. And I realised something. Now I know why those tailor charge so much just to make baju kurung. I used to complain that it's so expensive to be tailor-made. Now I TOTALLY understand. It's the workmanship plus the working hours. I admire all these tailors.

Only Chance

Sometimes I wonder why a girl would be so stubborn not to give a guy the chance to be with her? Not say the guy is a crook or a hooligan. He's such a gentleman who is willing to do anything for her. This actually happens to my guy friend. I really pity him. He did everything he could to show his love. But still the girl said that she's not ready. She's scared of all the problems that would arise in a relationship. Which relationship doesn't have any problems? It's more of how both parties handle such situations. I can understand that she's traumatised by her sister's failed relationship. Her sister's 4 year relationship ended just like that. I guess her sister must have been hurt badly. So that is why she doesn't want to be in her sister's state. But still she can't use that as an excuse. She has to lead her own life. Why does she think that her relationship would end up like her sister's relationship? I think eventually she would end up regretting once my guy friend gives up and moves on. Wouldn't that be too late if he already find someone new? Sometimes it's wise to think carefully before you make a final decision. Well I did give someone a chance and I'm very contented with him right now =)

Outing with Asyraf today.
Went to East Coast.
Late lunch at Macdonalds.
A walk home.
And I realised that when you are with your dearest, time just passed fast.
Well whatever it is I love every second, yes every second, I spent with him today.
Haha :)

You are my moon, you are my sun, you are my only one <3

;ASYRAF

Wooohooo!!! Finally I can blog. These past few days been so hectic since I had to mug for my term tests. Actually I'm left with one more paper. Communication skills -.- So I don't think that will affect me that much. HOLIDAYS are around the corner. In fact I'm already in the holiday mood. Haha. But then again I have like about 4 projects to complete within 2 weeks. I LOVE holidays! I think I shall stop here till I have something to blog again....

=)

Dearest Asyraf,

You mean happiness to me :)