I'm soooooo bored right now.
I'm all alone at home since 1pm.
I didn't follow my family because I was too lazy and I still have homework to finish up.
Now I don't even know what to do.
I haven't even eaten since my mum wanted to buy some food for me.
So I just have to stare blankly at my screen right now....

What day is today?
It's PAY DAY!!!
Haha.
My favourite day of each month.
So yeah as usual I went to settle all my bills.
Then I went shopping alone :)
I bought a pair of jeans, skirt, 3/4 pants, a top, lingerie and slippers.
I think I spent about $130?
You may think I spent so much but then I never buy anything during my holidays.
So must excuse me from spending that amount in just one day...
Hehe :D

Dearest Nurul got each of us a compact mirror when she was in China for her CDS.

How thoughtful of her...

At least she remembered us...

There were different colours and patterns.

Unfortunately, the rest took the nicest ones and I'm left with this.

Whatever it is, the mirror still looks nice :)

So I'm sure we will use this mirror often since we love to look at ourselves.

I mean which girl doesn't look into the mirror.

Most of us are vain.

Hehe.

Today is DESIGN day.

Every Monday would be my design modules.

Started the day with Textile Fundamentals.

It's all about learning the different types of fabric.

And then followed by Lifestyle Sewing in the late afternoon.

I was quite lost on how to start off using the sewing machine.

It has been years since I use one.

So I've forgotten how to put the thread and all.

Slowly I asked Nurul and Xiufeng to guide me.
It seems that the 2 of them know very well.

Future housewives I must say :) Haha.

Eventually I got the hang of it.

All of us were given a piece of cloth and just sew as many patterns as we can.

The more the better.

Well mine was simple.

It's just that when I started off, the stitches were crooked.

Hehe.

I'm so happy to see the COCO-CALAMANSI-CLAN again!!!

LOL...

We sat at our usual place.

Chit chatting while eating.
Like the good old times...

=D

Women who love too much...

Why is it wrong for a woman to love her man too much?
Is it a sin? A crime?
No I don't think so.
But why are they being punish for doing so?
The worse part is that they are being punish by their own men whom they loved dearly.
Furthermore these women are the ones who put so much effort in a relationship.
They tried their best to shower their love and show care and concern to their men.
What did they get in return?
HURT.

I don't understand why would a man scold his woman with vulgarities.
Then why in the first place that man would want to have a relationship and said I LOVE YOU?
Those 3 words would meant nothing at all.
It would just be 3 pathetic words.
Say them for the sake of saying.
Another thing is that why would a man have so many flings when he has a girlfriend?
If you as a man can't commit to one SERIOUS relationship then why even bother being in ONE?!

So what if the woman is angry that you never return her calls or reply those messages.
I think it is right for the woman to feel that way.
This is because she knows you are lying to her and having a good time with your other flings.
Sometimes men really have no sense of shame at all.
A man compromise to be with 2 girls at the same time and got the cheek to ask for permission.
What the hell is his problem?
I can't tolerate such nonsense from a guy.
Seriously speaking, I only ask a guy to love and be faithful to me.
I guess all women would want the same thing.
If a guy can't do that then I think he better not be in a serious relationship at ALL.
I mean what's the point even though you plead to stay with the girl when you are still committing those mistakes.
For goodness sake, enough with all those sweet talking and trying to be nice all of a sudden.
It is so obvious this type of guy cannot be trusted.
I also think that women should wake up and face the reality.
If a man does that to you, don't you dare give him another chance.
Yes I know you will be hurt.
Crying non-stop and reminisce of all those happy moments you were with him.
But can you afford to be hurt again and again?

There are 3 reasons as to why women love too much.
One is because of love.
She loves the man so much.
Secondly it's because of fear.
She has this fear of losing her man.
Lastly it's because of obssession.
She's addicted to the man.
I bet she doesn't even know why she's obssessed with him.

Well I just hope that women would be more careful and find the right ONE....

*Note: This entry has got nothing to do with my current relationship. I'm just voicing out my views in general.

You

One day alone
Sometimes it suits me
When that day is through
I'm hoping you'll walk in
I just miss you
I'll be okay
But it's better when I'm with you
One look at you
You see right through me
You know my moods
You know what I'm thinking
Feel what I'm feeling
Cause you're my best friend...

Timetable is out today....
HAIZ!!!!
I just hate the timetable.
There are 2 design modules.
4 hours each -.-
Isn't that frustrating.
Furthermore I don't like sewing.
This time round my timetable is packed.
There's no such thing as a day you don't have to come to school at all.
Last semester every Thursday I'm all free.
But now.....
I guess I'll be very busy this semester.
So sad :(

Yesterday's phone conversation got me all teary and started to think about it so much.
What if one day you got to know that your loved ones are gone?
Be it your family, friends or boyfriend/girlfriend.
When I say gone it means for good.
The person no longer exist in this world.
I can't imagine how I would react.
It would just leave a big impact on me.
I guess I would just breakdown and can't think about anything.
It's sad.
The very fact that if I loved the person so much and suddenly this happens.
I think this would be my biggest fear.
That is why I think that you should treasure and shower all your love to your loved ones.
You can never know when they will leave you just like that.
Worse still if you are unaware that the person is gone.

Personally I feel that my parents will aged and leave me eventually.
Like in the previous post, I mentioned that your parents have done their part to bring you up.
So now it will be your turn to build a family and bear responsibility.
Yes you will mourn for your parents but over time you will get over it since you still have to continue with your own life.
As for friends, it wouldn't be too much of an impact on you.
I think you will just mourn and feel sad.
You will reminisce of all those times when you are with your friends.
But then it depends on individual on how they feel about their own friends.
For me, I think that my companion will leave a big impact on me.
What if he's the one, my soulmate?
And that I don't even have the chance to spend the rest of my life with him.
Isn't that just so heartbreaking?
I don't know whether I would be able to pick myself up and move on with my life.
But I feel that it will be very difficult for me to go through on my own.
People may not understand how you feel for that someone.
They can just tell you to move on.
I understand that time will heal all wounds but it's just so hard to find someone else to replace the person whom you loved dearly.
I guess I leave it to you to ponder...

What Does Woman Feel About Her Love and Relationship?

What is the meaning of love to a woman?

The meaning of love is different to everyone. Many people have not yet found love. Therefore they are not sure what the meaning is to them. This is something that they will have to find out for themselves so that they can get the answers they need to find the true love of their life.

The meaning of true love to a woman is when they find someone that they can feel completely comfortable with and they want to spend the rest of their days with them. It is also when there is no shame, no embarrassment, no boundaries and nothing can turn you from this person. This means that a woman wants to spend every waking moment with their true love and when they are not with them physically, they will be with them emotionally.

What do women think about their love and relationships?

Each woman will have a different feeling when it comes to her relationship. They will sometimes have happy feelings and other times they will be unhappy or dissatisfied. If a woman is feeling this way, they are going to have to find a way to make the relationship better and make the woman feel better about their commitment and feelings for them.

Some women are very happy with their partner and relationship. They are feeling more in love than ever and never want the feeling to go away. They will have everything that they want and be completely in love with their partner and want to spend the rest of their days with them. This is when they know that this is a committed relationship that will eventually go the distance.

When a woman is not happy in her relationship, she is going to be depressed and unhappy. She may have emotional outbreaks that will leave her crying and upset at any given time. This is something that a woman needs to deal with and figure out why she is feeling this way. If a woman is not happy with her relationship, she will have to figure out how make it better because happiness is the only way to be truly satisfied all of the time.

The feeling of complete satisfaction

When a woman is in a truly committed relationship, she is going to be able to feel better and more confident in her relationship. She is going to want to shout it out to the world that she is living her dream. When a woman has complete trust and confidence in her man, she is able to live better and make the most of her life. She can then think about the next step and where the future is going for her. This the feeling of complete satisfaction and every man and woman deserves to have this at some stage in his or her life.

When a man is cheating

If a woman has a partner that is cheating or has cheated on her, this can leave her with mixed emotions. She is going to feel very self-conscious and disrespected. She will find it hard to get that trust factor back and for some relationships, it may be lost forever. This is something that a woman has to deal with and take the responsibility on for herself. She will need to make the necessary changes to get her life in order and to make the most of her future and the love that is waiting for her somewhere.

Depression in love

Feeling depressed or unwaneted is not uncommon for a lot of women. They are not going to feel like they attractive and worthwhile if something has happened in their love life or in a relationship, which has disturbed their trust. Many women fall into depression and will have a hard time getting out of it. It is important for them to have their friends and family around them so that they can gain the support and encouragement that they deserve to get their self-respect back.

Taking the control back is one way to make sure that a woman gets the love that she deserves in her life. She needs to make sure that she knows what she wants and how to go after it. This will bring her closer to getting the love and the relationship that she needs in her life.

What Men Want: What He's saying and What He REALLY Means

What a man says and what he does are often two different things.
A relationship with a man is all about being able to "tell" what he means even if he is not saying it aloud.

A man is going to tell you he doesn't need a paper to tell him he is involved with a woman, and to be involved in a commitment. He wants to keep the relationship the way it is already. When the man is really telling you is that yes, he loves you but he is scared. Most often, a man is not going to get married to prove that he loves you. A man is not going to get married and not take that final step in commitment because he is happy with the understanding and the relationship that you already have and enjoy.

A man who is online all the time, and who is involved with chatting with girls tells you it is for fun, and that you should trust him more because what harm could come from chatting online. He wants to continue chatting online with women and he wants you to butt out of his life. The reality of what a man is telling you in this situation is that he is talking to someone online and sharing his life with someone online. He knows it is wrong, but you are not going to be able to tell him what to do or how he should be doing it. A man is going to continue chatting online because he feels the challenge of the woman on the other end of the line, and loves the new attention he is getting from her.

The man in your life is constantly telling you to get a job, that you need to be more supportive of the household. What this man is really trying to tell you is that he can't support all of your needs and his. He feels that for the relationship to work, you need to take an active role in bringing in the money and paying for some of the bills as well. The man in your life could be afraid that you are depending on him too much that you should get out there and make new friends, even if they are friends you meet at work.

A man who hits a woman, and then tells you he is sorry and didn't mean it is really lying. A man, that is abusive, is going to continue to be abusive. The abusive man wants to feel power and control in the relationship. The man who can't control his feelings is likely to never change, unless you are able to change the reason why he hit you to start with. Your best option is to run from this relationship no matter what the cost or pain you feel.

When a man tells you that his family is every important to him and that you need to back down from his mother, he is really teeling you that he would choose his mother over you. While he might tell you it is going to be easirt to get along if you were to change, he is really telling you that no matter what you do you are never going to please her, so you will have to change your ways to be a part of the family. In reality if the family can't accept who you are and how your life is, you shouldn't be a part of that family. It will only lead to ongoing grief and frustration in your life.

A man who is constantly working late, and calls to tell you he will be late again is not always on the up and up. If his paycheck never changes, or when you call the office and he doesn't answer, the man is really telling you that he is not coming home right now and he has better things to do than to spend time with you. If you are always sitting at home, wondering where your man is, and he tells you he is working late all the time and can't make time for important matters, you need to move on in life becuase 9 times out of 10 he is cheating on you.

A man feels there is nothing wrong with having women friends. Most of time this is going to be the case, and a woman friend is not going to be a problem. However, if your man is telling you that he just likes hanging out with this one woman he knows, it is likely that he is cheating on you. He many not be having sexual relations with her, but he is cheating on you because he is giving his attention to her. He is cheating on you by being there for her and not for you when you need him most. He will tell you he is not cheating on you, but when he sticks up for her again and again, you know there is an intimacy level that should not be.

So I was all emo in my last entry...
What can I say?
I'm just a girl with feelings :)
Haiz....
This is the last week of the holidays!!!
I'm NOT looking forward to 2nd year.
It will just be another year of stress.
Suddenly I just feel like time flies.
I'm turning 19 this year too :(
I'm getting older day by day.
It's sad knowing that I will be in my twenties soon.
How I wish I could just remain a teenager and not grow old =D

Asyraf...

Well today I went out with him.
It was unplanned and last minute.
After a few weeks of not seeing each other and finally I got to meet him.
I was happy to see him since I missed him so much.
I know he's tired due to his hectic work.
I really do pity him.
I appreciate that he's willing to spend time with me today.
We didn't watch any movie like we used to.
Today was different.
We just took long bus rides from Bedok to Woodlands and then back again to Bedok.
From Bedok we went to Simei EastPoint.
Sometimes I wish I could just stop the time and be with him hand in hand.
Admire his smile and look into his eyes.
If only he knows what I'm feeling right now.
I know this is too mushy but sometimes I feel that I should not bottled up my feelings anymore.
I've never loved a guy this much.
And I'm glad I found him =)

Priscilla's 19th Birthday

So finally Xiufeng and I got to meet Priscilla to celebrate her belated 19th birthday.

Initially we wanted to go to East Coast but it was raining heavily in the afternoon.

Unfortunately, we had to think of plan B.

It was either Tampines Mall or Causeway Point.

We decided to go to Tampines Mall since it was nearer to Bedok.

I got Priscilla a teddy bear while Xiufeng got her a small heart shaped cake and a cross with some inspirational quotes.

Well it was nice to see her smiling and she didn't expect we would plan all this.

=)

Life Partner

I used to think that my family would come first.
Well I think that family is still important as they are the people whom you depend on whenever you need help.
But recently I've read someone's view on marriage and somehow it does make sense.
Your life partner would be the one accompanying you for the rest of your life, therefore he/she is important.
Even more important than your children because eventually your children will grow up and leave you.
And also more important than your parents because they can't stay by your side forever.
Come to think of it, it's actually so true.
In the first phase of your life, your parents bear full responsibility of bringing you up.
But until a certain stage in your life, you have to face the fact that you are placed out there fighting for your own future.
Your parents' tasks have been fulfilled, and therefore they can enjoy life.
So, you will be out there finding your life partner whom you will spend the rest of your life with.
I think many people would disagree and say that they would love their parents no matter what.
But the thing is that no one says that you stop loving them.
It's just that one day, you grow up, roam around and build your own family.

Gender Issues

Call me crazy or whatever you want to..
But I like watching movies based on transexuals, homosexuals and sex change.
During my holidays, I've watched quite a number of such movies.
Somehow I feel that it's interesting to know why they become like that.
Sometimes it's sad to know that a handsome guy wants to be a girl or a pretty girl wants to be a guy.
There are many theories as to why some individuals are orientated towards homosexuality rather than heterosexuality but they are only speculations at this point in time.
Most of these theories follow three approaches:
1) nature
2) nurture and
3) a combination of both nature and nurture
The basis behind the nature theory for homosexuality is that individuals are born with a certain genetic makeup which predetermines their homosexual orientation.
The nurture theory believes that one's environment and experiences can predetermine one's sexual orientation.
Other scientists believe that homosexuality is a result of both nature and nurture.
Many questions may arise when comes to homosexuality.
Imagine you feeling like you're trapped in the wrong body, that there's been some sort of mistake that you are supposed to be a girl instead of a boy.
How would you tell your family and friends that you want to change genders?
Would you bring it up with someone you had a crush on?
And what would you do when society not only refused to accept the new you, but was violent toward you?
Well personally I feel that it's not easy for these people to come out and let people accept their homosexuality.
They have to endure and tolerate since the world is hostile and prejudice towards gays and lesbians.
Unfortunately, society make people hide their homosexuality and as a result they end up living double lives and denying who they really are.
So do you think people should be more open-minded towards homosexuality and accept for who they are?
Well this is a question no one can actually answer but it's based on each individual.

* Fact: 1 in every 10 peple are said to be gay

Crowded

Today my parents decided to go to the newly open Giant Tampines.
While we were at the carpark, we could see the place was damn crowded.
What do you expect right?
Whenever there's a new outlet open, all these kiasu people would come.
Furthermore, most people had their pay and so they would want to shop for their needs.
Seriously I can't stand big crowd.
It's like people are everywhere.
You could hardly move especially if you are pushing the trolley.
I find that it's stupid to have everything from food to clothes to appliances all on same floor.
That is why you could hardly walk.
It was also difficult to find the things you want.
The queue at every counter were damn long.
I had to sit outside and wait for my dad to pay since I can't be bothered to queue.