I feel soooooooo much relieve knowing that 2 projects are over and done with. Today is the submission date. So its 2 down and 3 more to go: CSAS, LSEW1 and TeFund. I just can't wait to finish up the others. Once I'm done with them I will start my revision properly. Recently I just feel tired and pressured. So many things are on my mind. It's like I'm constantly worrying on how to complete my assignments before 13 Aug. Well hopefully by end of this week I will at least complete my sewing and half of Tefund done. Enough with school work.

As usual today is Design Day. Initially I got no mood to do anything. But when that woman wanted to check how we've been progressing, that's when I told myself I hope she don't give me any problems. She commented on my oven gloves but she said never mind about amending them since it's tedious to do so. Then she asked me to unpick the seams for my apron and fold in the raw edges. I knew she's going to comment on that because I realised that I forgotten to fold in. So it was a miracle that I took out the machine and started sewing the seams all over again. I was thinking why not sew the seams in school and I could start working on my 3rd item. I also thought of redoing my apron pocket because I forgotten to fold in the raw edges as well =) Sometimes when you are too busy sewing, you can just forget about the simple but yet important procedures.

The fuuny thing was that Pris and I planned to skip class once she marked our attendance. We wanted to leave at 3pm. In the end we left at 5pm. How great. That woman just kept bothering us. Nowadays during lesson, she seemed to always be walking around at the back. She knew that those at the back would always be chit-chatting instead of sewing. Haha. Like what Pris once said "Sewing lesson is the time for socialising and gossiping". It's ridiculous but true. Since we had sewing lessons, we tend to mingle more with our other classmates. Maybe because we always talk loudly and people can just hear our conversations even if they don't want to. It's like in the end these people would share their stories/problems/gossips/opinions. We even learn something that we don't even know of. Yes I know it's interesting. Unfortunately most of the chatting kakis did not turn up for today's sewing lesson.

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Finally I've decided to update my blog. It has been days since I wrote an entry. I just don't have the mood and idea what to blog about. Well the weather has been cold and gloomy for the past 2 weeks. And I've been falling sick twice. I thought I was going to recover but unfortunately my flu came back again. How terrible is that. I can't breathe, smell and taste properly. School has been hectic. So many projects and assignments to finish up. It's stressing me up. Exams are like in 3 weeks time. Thank goodness I have to sit for only 2 papers. So I'm done updating about myself.

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Sometimes I wonder if I've changed whether for the good or for the worse. My friends knew that I've changed. They said it's not a bad thing but how I react and do things are different. So I asked myself this, is it because I'm growing up since I will be entering the adulthood? I see things differently since life is too short. I used to have a strong stand of not being in a relationship. But what happened now? I'm already in one. So I guess I've changed my perspective.

People also thought that I'm too mushy ever since I wrote a lot of those poems to him. Well I'm not a mushy person to begin with, but slowly I learn to express myself. Sometimes I would just write them because that's what I'm feeling. Furthermore this is my first serious relationship ever. I won't know what to expect in a relationship. I'm learning and along the way I see and learn things which I never knew all this while.

Yes I admit that once I said that one shouldn't be in a relationship now. I said that just to convince myself that relationship is a waste of time and a form of distraction. But when I'm in a relationship I realised I can proved myself that I can juggle school, family, friends and him at the same time. And of course I'm proud of myself. It means to say that I've set my priorities right too. I know what I want in my life. Let's say if I'm not going to have a boyfriend now, eventually I will have one isn't it? Initially I'm scared to be in a relationship whenever I see what my friends went through. But when a nice guy comes along, why not give him and me a chance to be together? Sometimes it's best to give it a try because you can never know what's in store for you.

People always thought that just because I wrote all those mushy and lovey-dovey stuff means I'm head over heels and mesmerize with my boyfriend. I won't say my relationship is a perfect one. Along the way there are bound to have problems. That's when you will learn to overcome problems and learn your mistakes. I admit that I do commit silly mistakes unknowingly. I must say that's part and parcel of a relationship. I will miss him so much and longing him to be there for me. Sometimes it takes such problems to make you realised that you love someone so much. We do take things for granted. We should never doubted someone's love for you and just treasure every seconds when you are with your loved ones. I know I've been through quite a bit till I fell sick since I've been having sleepless nights and kept crying. But then I believe that God will make me stronger. Now I guess time will tell and I will just have to wait patiently.

I guess today I'm in the mood to blog. I just feel like expressing myself. Asyraf just wrote an entry on Men and Women. Yes, they are 2 different species but it got me thinking that both have the same needs. They want the best of the best in terms of their partner's looks, body and character. Can one ever be satisfy with what they already have? Like most people would say, they deserve better. Human nature make it such that people are greedy creatures. They would be comparing with what others have. This is when people make mistakes. Nothing in this world is perfect and yet they are seeking for it.

Does this question ever occurs to you? Is there anyone out there who is beautiful/handsome with great figure and has a good character exists? If God make each and every single one of us that way, wouldn't that making the world a better place to live in with no problems? You don't have to choose since everyone is perfect and you just have to pick one.

Sometimes in life you just have to make do with what you already get. I believe all of these are predestined. If they are not happy with what they have, that's when they start to compare with other people. They would be saying "oh so and so has a nice boyfriend who is good-looking and well-doing". They would also be asking themselves this, "which person doesn't want to have a perfect partner?" I just feel that a person should just be grateful and thankful for having someone to be your other half. No matter how he/she looks like or how bad is his/her character, that person is still a human being like every one else even yourself.

I don't even see myself as the perfect girl and so I shouldn't have the right to be complaining that my boyfriend is not good enough for me. When you go out in the public, you see all these attractive people. Yes it's nice to look at them. But have you ever wonder this, would you ever look at your girlfriend/boyfriend the same way as you look at them although he/she is unattractive. And I bet you should even know why you are attached to him/her in the first place despite he/she not being attractive.

So am I wrong to make a statement that one can never be too happy with what they have? Well I leave that for you to decide.

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I'm feeling all stressed up with school, be it projects, assignments or exams. So many datelines to be met. Here I am online. Sometimes you just feel like getting away from all these. You just want to do the things that you like at your own pace.

Today, I just stay at home the whole day. I practised sewing my apron. It's not perfect but it's definitely a good start. This will somehow help me familiarise with the steps so that I would do a proper one for submission.

So I've been playing this pc game, Cake Mania, for the past few days. I don't know why I got addicted to that game but it all started from my friends. Apparently, Amanda brought her Nintendo DS Lite to school. She kept playing it whenever she's free. Priscilla would play Cake Mania on Amanda's console. She seems so into the game. As though nothing around her matters. It makes me wonder what is so fun about that game? Even Nurul loves playing it. I borrowed Nurul's CD and I installed it into my laptop. After one round, I'm hooked onto the game. I would play it non-stop. But now I'm stucked at one of the levels and I'm already too lazy to continue.

Now I have a new hobby. Well I don't know whether I should label it as a hobby but I did online shopping today for the first time! Haha. Ya I know that I'm like so outdated. People have been turning to online shopping since don't know when. Initially I thought that it would be a risk doing online shopping, especially transferring of money to the other person. But come to think of it, if it's not safe, why there are so many items sold out? The website also received good feedback and comments. I've just purchased this shirt dress. I think its worth the money. Hopefully I can get it as soon as possible. I'm all excited. Hehe.

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5 C's in a man; Cash, Car, Career, Condo and Credit card. Are these 5 C's important in determining the right man in your life? I wonder if Singaporean women are still using this 5 C's to find their other halves.

Well for me not all of the 5 C's are necessary. I would say that a man should have a stable career. With a stable career, your life would be secured. You don't have to worry since there is a source of income. Women want stability and security from the guys. And with that stable career, of course he would have cash. But of course, I would not depend solely on him. I would have my own career. With a combine income, it would really help a lot.

I also think that a guy should have a car. It's important especially when a guy has a family of his own. Travelling would be a problem especially when there are children. It's a hassle to bring them out by taking public transport. I've seen so many couples bringing their kids out. Some would push the pram and just occupy so much space. Having a car means convenience. You can travel anywhere you want to.

Personally, I feel that living in a condo is not a good idea. I know it's nice to live in a condo where you have all the facilities available. But then again, so much money is involved. You have to fork out so much every month to pay the maintenance fee. Buying a condo is not even affordable. Not all condo are nice. Some are too small. I rather stay in a 4-room/5-room flat. As long as there's a roof over my head, I'm contented.

I think it is not wise to have credit cards. Unless, you don't spend much and can pay the bills later on. Having credit cards can be a nightmare. If you are those type who shop a lot, be careful when comes to credit cards. Yes, it can be addictive sometimes. You just have to give your card and sign. You would be very happy for that moment but when the bills come, I think you can faint just by looking at the amount you have to pay back in return. Credit card acts like you buy first and pay later. And if you don't pay your bills, you can be declared as a bankrupt. So it's best not to have credit cards. But I think it's alright to have one just for emergency purposes. Let's say you don't have enough cash with you and need to buy something urgently. So that credit card would come in handy.

So my question to all the ladies out there, which C's are important to you? Or you wouldn't even consider any C's. Maybe personality, character or looks play an important role in choosing the man of your dreams.

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How do you know if your girlfriend/boyfriend genuinely loves you? It's hard to tell isn't it?

You may think that your girlfriend/boyfriend loves you so much just because he/she always spend time with you, show their affectionate towards you, whisper sweet nothings to you or even buy you gifts. What's the point when you get all those but actually your girlfriend/boyfriend is cheating on you behind your back?

Some people are able to tolerate with that just because they've been given all the attention they needed. But is that worth it? Why waste your time with someone who doesn't love you wholeheartedly?

Sometimes I don't understand why people are so cruel as to cheat on their girlfriend/boyfriend. You wanted to be a relationship with that person and even make promises to him/her to be faithful and loyal. But in the end what happened? Eyeing on others.

I think it's better to tell your partner the truth that you just don't want to continue the relationship anymore instead of making him/her look like a fool. Such things just frustrates me. People just don't treasure what they have. And when they realised their mistakes, they would come back crawling to their partners. Well I think that would be too late. Personally I feel it's still ok if these people repent but what if they repeat it again? Then I guess they deserved to be shot dead =)

Isn't it wonderful to have a bunch of friends whom you can talk to about anything under the sun? Not many people are open-minded. Some may be sensitive to certain issues and get offended as a result. But when you meet the right people, you will realised that there are so many things to talk about. It can be any issues ranging from personal problems to family affair to friendships to sex and relationships to general knowledge or even to the world. The best part would be relating one topic to another. You will also learn new things along the way. Sometimes you can learn and clarify things which you are unsure or unaware of. There will be exchange of everyone's view on the issues.

Priscilla and I have always thought that sewing period is boring. That's when we would always hang around somewhere else. And today, we decided to sit and eat at Design's school canteen. Then along came Nurul and Fattasha. They joined us. It seems like we talked so much today. We even touched on the topic of blood types.

Priscilla said that type O blood cannot donate to other blood types. But Nurul and I think otherwise. That's when we would start to explain to each other. It's like a debate. We even asked one of our classmates who is much more knowledgeable. She agreed with Nurul and I.
Well since I'm free, I've even check out the internet to do some research.

Persons with O Positive Type Blood can recieve the following types of blood:
- O Positive
- O Negative

O Positive type blood can be safely given to persons with blood types:
- O Positive
- A Positive
- B Positive
- AB Positive
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Persons with O Negative Type Blood can recieve the following types of blood:
- O Negative

O Negative type blood can be safely given to persons with blood types:
- O Positive
- O Negative
- A Positive
- A Negative
- B Positive
- B Negative
- AB Positive
- AB Negative
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So basically, Type O blood is the universal blood type and is the only blood type that can be transfused to patients with other blood types.

Unfortunately, I'm O+. So I can donate to others but people who do not have the same blood type as me can't do so. How sad. Well anyways I've learnt something new =)

Honestly speaking, I'm not cut out to sew. I only like to sew for fun. But when comes to sewing assignment, trust me, I'm bad at it. Even my mood would change. If anyone enters my room and disturb me, I would just scream and chase him/her out. Unfortunately, my brother was the victim =)

It's never easy to sew a product, for example oven gloves. Who in this world ever sew oven gloves? You can just buy a pair of them at any store. Furthermore, I'm just a beginner and I have to sew such things. Seriously I think that the design modules for my course of study is redundant. Who knows MOE won't include sewing subject in secondary schools for good? Then wouldn't that be a waste of time and effort? Even though it is not an examinable subject, I have no choice but to pass it. NO WAY I'm going to repeat it again.

I've even wasted my money just for buying fabrics. If it's cheap I wouldn't mind. I have to hunt for the right fabrics. And if that woman isn't happy with your fabrics, you have to buy again. To make things difficult for us, she even requested that we come up with a theme.

Back to my oven gloves, so I finished sewing them yesterday except for the bias binding. I thought it wouldn't be tedious to sew the bias binding. But I was wrong. I couldn't sew using the machine. It was difficult. In the end, I resort to hand sewing. My mum helped me with that. Even though the stitches don't look neat, who cares. If that woman mark me down then I got nothing more to say. I've tried my best. Nothing is perfect for a beginner. But I'm proud of myself that I managed to sew a real item.

They say that men and cars have a special kind of bonding on par with the kind shared among the best of friends. It won't be too wrong to say that cars are a man's best friend just like the way a diamond is a woman's. They have this strange affinity towards cars which no woman has been able to figure out so far.

Men are like kids when it comes to cars and one can just see a twinkle in the eyes at the mere mention of their cars name. I think cars have a therapeutic feel to it, after a long day of work just sitting behind the wheel of your car, turning on the music and just going for a drive just makes one feel that this is as good as it gets.

When there is a group of men together you can rest to sure that the topic of cars will crop up sooner or later and once this happens there is bound to be non-stop babbling and also a few arguments. What is this thing between cars and men I often ask myself?

I guess the only possible conclusion I could come up with is that men by nature love sheer speed and thrill of sitting behind a wheel which they find absolutely addictive. On second thought, the reason for the affinity between cars and men can also be due to the fact that men long for a sort of companionship on whom they can freely confide in.

Women always say that men don't get it. Well I guess it applies likewise to the women. They don't get it when it comes to men and cars.

There's a saying "Absence makes the heart grow fonder". I believe that explains how I've been feeling all this while. It has been almost a week since the last time I've spoken to him on the phone since my line got cut. And also he has been busy lately. I missed him so much. We don't even see each other that often. But today I finally got to meet him =)

"Distance never separate two hearts that really care,
for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there.
But whenever I start feeling sad, because I miss you,
I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss..."

Despite It All...

Despite the place,
That I'm now in,
This corner of my life,
That tells where I've been...

Despite the set backs,
That I face,
Or of the tears,
That leave a trace...

Despite the time,
That distance brings,
Or life's little quirks,
And all other things...

Despite the way,
Life comes about,
My love for you,
There is no doubt...

Do you ever encounter dreams/nightmares which feel so real? I just did just now when I took an evening nap. When I woke up, I cried. I don't know if I cried was because I'm glad it wasn't real or because the nightmare was too much for me to handle. Usually I couldn't remember much of what I dreamt of. But today it was different. I could actually recall the entire nightmare. I used to hear people saying that if you could remember your dream/nightmare, it would not come true whereas if you couldn't, then it would become real. I wonder if happen works that way. Whatever it is, I wouldn't want to have such nightmares anymore. Hopefully I can sleep peacefully tonight since tomorrow or should I say this morning would be DESIGN MODULES -.-

I don't know if it's just me or any other girls would experience the same thing. Out of the blue, I started to feel moody. I just don't feel like talking and want to be alone. It happened just like that. This would even affect the people around me. Since I don't feel like talking or whatsoever, they thought I'm having problems. But the thing is that I just got no mood. Not say I'm angry or feeling sad over something. I think it's PMS. This is just one of the symptoms I would get before having my period.

He was on night shift yesterday and as usual he would sms me. But I was feeling moody and I didn't really entertain him. So I felt bad and told him. He also knew that something is wrong with me. I guess a guy can easily spot the difference. Maybe the way I type my message is a big hint.

It's never easy being a girl.

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