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Since I got nothing to do, I explored blogger and realised there's such thing as "Permissions".
Haha.
So now I've made my blog private and only selected people can view it.
Well this is the best way so that others including my family could not read my blog.
Sometimes I feel like penning down my thoughts and feelings but I'm living in fear that my family will eventually find out.

Ok enough with that I shall say what my heart feels right now.
I've never thought that I would find a guy and fall in love.
Initially I was reluctant to do so.
But then when the love is there, it's there.
You can't run away from it.
I've always thought that I would be concentrating on my studies and have a stable career first before getting into a relationship.
Come to think of it, I'm a teacher-to-be.
I just have to complete 2 diplomas and that's it.
My future has already been set for me.

Let's say I will only find a guy once I started my job.
I'll be like 23 plus.
Isn't that too old to find a guy?
I guess by then Nurul, Priscilla, Wani and even Xiufeng will be known as "Mrs....."
Or what if by that age I still couldn't find one?
I think I will live a miserable life.

So ya I think I've made the right choice.
Let's say I don't give this relationship a chance.
I think I might regret it.

Well I'm happy as I am now.
I know I'm not a romantic person.
I don't express my love like others do.
Sometimes I don't know whether I'm shy or scared to do so.
Haha.
Up till today I don't even know what to call him.
I don't even call his name.
But as long as he knows how I feel about him, I think it's good enough.
Eventually I will be more open I guess.
=)

I'm truly grateful that he appeared in my life.
He may not be the perfect guy I was hoping for but he's always been there for me.
Words just couldn't describe how I feel about him
If I have one wish....I hope he's the one in my life.

<3